Nicki Chapman traumatised by brain tumour ordeal as she admits 'it makes me cry'

Nikki Chapman has been left traumatized by her brain tumor ordeal and she has been left unable to talk about it without being emotional and crying the 57-year-old former pop Idol judge was diagnosed with a non-malignant brain tumor in 2019 and she underwent surgery when the tumor had grown to a size of a small golf ball Nikki said that she broke down in tears when she was told in March 2022 that the tumor had disappeared and told the times it makes me cry I have put my own tumor in a filing cabinet you do this with a lot of things in life it will always be there but I don't need to keep opening it I won't let it Define me speaking about the moment when she was told that the tumor had gone Nikki revealed I have had an amazing life and once the bombshell of the tumor dropped I thought I don't want to give this life up but if this is is it well how lucky have I been and that sounds so glossy but I was born with the glass half full I found a strength to deal with it it was either take me now or let me live speaking on the white wine Question Time Podcast Nikki said back in October I was having my yearly scan with my fantastic consultant who he knows that I adore him I tell him regularly in front of my husband how much I adore him and the NHS that looked after me and continued to look after me so well and he rank me and I was standing in a field because now we do phone appointments we don't do it face to face so he rang me with my latest scans and I was standing in a field and the escape to the country crew were moved away Nikki added I knew I was getting the call so they moved away and they gave me some privacy and I'm looking at all the these pigs the amazing consultant rang me and said the tumor Nikki has gone for the moment it's disappeared I was sobbing and he was like Nikki Nikki I'm like no no no I said do we know why he said no these things happen the TV personality continued I get a bit tear just thinking about it and they don't know why and obviously I've still got to be monitored because these things have habits of changing so we take the good when we can always look for the win in every situation so Bert for the moment has gone and in the nicest of ways I hope the b d never comes back