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[Music] the star of Danel facing the fight of her life now on bbc1 Scotland strictly Amy cancer and [Music] me live from the BBC this is Strictly Come Dancing Strictly Come Dancing is the biggest dance show in the world dancing the vion RS Tom Fletcher and Amy but it's not just any entertainment show it is the highest level of professional dancing for professional dancer like myself the ultimate goal was to become a professional dancer on Strictly it is like the World Cup every year still feels like my first year I get that excited to be one of those very few Pros little old Amy from cilly at the beginning of 2023 I felt like everything I'd ever hoped for was falling into place Ben and I got married children were on the horizon I'm teaching at the dance school I was going to be back on Strictly and all of a sudden my everyday life just like that changed the strictly chem dancing star Amy daen has revealed she's been diagnosed with breast cancer the 32 year old from Cil says she was diagnosed last week to be 32 with breast cancer you're thinking this isn't good and the Outlook doesn't look [Music] good hello come on in it's a little bit um upside down at because we did long moving and we um just want to start Renovations so coming in so the first time I felt the lump in my breast it was the day before we were about to go on honeymoon and I was just like I just knew oh no I need to get this checked I just felt bit sick really to the stomach so I saw the doctor and he said maybe it's not good news we found something and I just said is it cancer he just said [Music] yes it was last Friday you know when she rang us may we just came out with it and said yeah um sorry m d but I do feel that no parents want to here you just unexpect it 32 years of age and you think how can that happen how can it be happening to how our daugh yeah we're going to be here behind you every step every step of the way are you planning to do any work yeah I'd like to carry on teach some lessons at the studio you pop to competitions you planning to do any filming for strictly I'd like to carry on with that yeah and sent me this yesterday hi my darling well I just wanted to send you lots of love really I wanted to tell you I love you and I'm thinking about you and I hope you uh well I I know you're going to be great and you're going to you're going to do whatever you need to do but um I'm just thinking about you lots of love my first jats when I had to T rly was keep my job cuz that was the scariest thing that was the most important thing wasn't it yeah I know and I must as well as focus on wanting to be back out there on the Dance World you've got to focus on getting well first [Music] MH was a huge shock but Amy think the hardest thing is probably going to be the unknown if this she doesn't know when when normal will start again [Music] right now cuz it's obviously only just had the news we don't know yet the full prognosis so my doctor my consultant they want to do a full body MRI they're going to find out everything they need to from these last two tests that's fine yeah yeah and then I'll have to wait them for those results to come in I think for me I thought I was Sav into my 50s until they start doing your your mogs I didn't think it'd ever affect me it just feels like a really really scary worrying time right now I'm just thinking of my riddled with it basically and when you start googling online and you're seeing like people diagnosed under the age of 40 at less survival dances and I just kept thinking I'm going to be one of them I'm going to be one of those [Music] percentages my life was turned upside down suddenly I went from dancing every day to go into lots of Hospital appointments and I wasn't sure how long I could keep it a secret I kept worrying and being like in the middle of the night waking up going what if somebody's puts it online what if the Press do get home of it I just spoke to Ben and I said I think we need to be open and honest and I think it's going to help us I'd already decided to make this film to raise awareness but if my cancer diagnosis was to come out much sooner I wanted to be the one to reveal it I didn't sleep the night before I was so worried because I'd never posted anything so personal I had no idea what the response was going to [Music] [Music] be I didn't quite expect it to go down like it did I was really taken away by it the amount of messages I received from other girls going through it in their 20s and their [Music] 30s the outpouring of love and support made me feel so much better but it was also kind of scary because now my story was out there good good morning just finished doing my makeup trying to hide the bags um didn't get much sleep last night because today is the last appointment when I find out my plan and my prognosis for my cancer treatment Amy have always had a lot of determination and she've always had to fight with with her Crone disease I think that have helped her the fact that in the past as well she've had terrible flare ups she's been through a lot and she she've known that she will get through it and there are better days coming hi hello you right yeah are gone so in the MRI they found the lump it's um nearly doubled in size right right okay and they said not to be alarmed but mine is grade three out of three so is the most aggressive type of cancer yeah right so um I'm going to have a masectomy definitely yeah right and then with chemo is just he said you know repare for the worst really yes right L to absb today to take it yeah absolutely I'm shattered I bet you are [Music] she has been called The Wonder of Wales the princess of TR satin the queen of Cil but you know her as the star of stly Come dancing it's Amy [Applause] D it's the third of June so just days away from the surgery I wanted to dance tonight uh we got invited up quite a while ago and I didn't want to let anyone down but also I just wanted to dance um and when I'm dancing it's when I'm not worrying about anything it's when I'm dancing I feel the most alive I love the adrenaline rush there's nothing else like it to dance at the highest level a professional level you have to be as fit as an athlete and I'm really scared about how treatment is going to affect my body thank you so much for being such a wonderful audience tonight I don't know when I'm going to get to dance again hopefully real soon cuz um I'm really [Applause] [Music] determined right so I've got my um surgical bras my pajamas so today I'm going to have my surgery I'm my masectomy the anxiety I feel is you know it's all happened really quickly I only met with the plastic surgeon once all them are I actually don't know what reconstruction they can or will do so I'm only going to find that out when I wake up for me personally have not wanted to read or look too much into it because everybody's is different and I guess I come to terms of it in my own way hello yeah coming in ready I remember Amy phoning me and she just burst into tears Jen I've got cancer do you like my socks you got this you have it's just absolutely devastating it's really really difficult as her friend to watch her go through this and T-shirt oh this is beautiful gorgeous is it I was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 42 back in 2020 when I had my treatment Amy was a fantastic support to myself and my family my daughter Sky idolizes a me now this is from Sky because she was a bit upset today and she was going to give it tomorrow well she was going to send it with me tomorrow but she said you can have it now she uh too Amy I wish you tons of luck today and just wanted to remind you that you are one of the bravest strongest women I know you taught me to believe in myself and I believe in you well you will get with this come up better remember you love billions not to love sky that's a lovely message isn't it and I think that's I think that's the sentiment of every child at the dance school not just not just sky but everybody feels like that you're a complete role model for all those children you are you mean the world to them yeah thank you Amy is a very strong person and she doesn't like anyone to see that she's upset yeah but the enormity of what she's about to to do kind of hit home I was still nervous about sharing what was happening but then i' get so many messages of support it really pulled me through I couldn't believe how many others were going through it they became like a community of friends online and I didn't feel alone I had people who were also going through the same timeline as me had just been diagnosed know some who were further along the line some who'd been through it and those messages really helped me because I really held on to those messages for [Music] hope I think today's the biggest Cross of them allall really cuz I'm effectively can be cancer free as soon as I wake up 3 weeks of just simp like res in and then I can start you know going back to your day today 6 weeks before I can slowly get back dancing so that doesn't sound like 6 weeks it's actually quite close for year before you know what I can start dancing takes as long as it takes so I deal with it just by trying to keep going and keep being positive you try to do your normal things that you normally do you try to remain positive and think of the best outcomes that will possibly happen and just be like you know in six weeks time in this much time everything will back to normal yeah you will be you'll be fine at the time I can see Ben and I will be in really naive but you're just so desperate for everything in life to be back to how it was you'll be [Music] fine well done yeah right done well done the surgeon be to see us he said you're really Brave Really Brave girl yes the surgeon said the surgery went well and they were able to do the Reconstruction as well at the same time so that was good quite a lot of sickness um naier and she's very very tired very sleepy [Music] there on let's for Amy down all the way from Wales when we were in Cornwall there was a disco dancing competition she put on her best dress and all she says all day is I'm going to enter the dancing competition tonight yeah she come running up say I W I won dad I won the yeah give nice Applause to Amy so there was no looking back then dance took over since being very young Amy's two dreams were to be become the British Latin dance champion and to become a professional dancer on Strictly Come Dancing which is you know quite far of Dreams really for for a young person for two Big Dreams she did it yeah CBBC star Kim cell and his partner Amy [Applause] D on a Saturday you're in for your hero makeup you got your dress run your band call and then all of a sudden before you know it you're live to the nation I love it [Applause] I'm so sorry about good morning everyone I'm feeling so much better today I've just had my first shower actually put Norm more clothes on first time since Wednesday um but yeah I've not still looked at my new boob um I'm just like spending the whole shower looking up but I feel so much better today I'm starting to see the light certainly at the end of the tunnel when I'm feeling like this the person I always turn to is my best friend Diane we started strictly on the same day and 5 years later I asked her to be my bridesmaid you look lovely so do you stunning as always my makeup then I missed you you're right I'm good how are you literally just everything's happen so fast as well no of course it's so much to to think about and take in and like it's it but it's it's you're you're so okay to feel scared and okay to be like oh my God what is going on how does your breast actually look I'm not going to lie I didn't look at it for two weeks and I had to do with nurse really it's really scared I you don't like it yeah exactly and it's such a big like our as dancers our appearance is a big thing for us it's just something that we're always probably since we're little we've always been aware of it so anything that does happen physically to our bodies we do it does take play a mental AB Ro so it's like I got to wear these horrible surgical bras day and night that's what my kind of bra is Amy I don't do nice actually this one's nice that is actually really cute Sports it literally honest to me to me it looks like all the bruising is going down know it looks like um a boob to me so oh my God it looks that's amazing yeah it's so perky it actually looks so good it looks I was expecting it of course you're still going to be worried and all all of that but I just just looking at you you just look incredible and I can't wait for the moment we get to dance again but we're all rooting for you everyone is thank you darling her dancing has always been the thing that she kind of goes to to release anything that is troubling her in her life and I know how much she wants to be back on that dance floor that moment will be the most special moment for her and um yeah I can't wait it will happen and I hope that I'm just stood there beside her if someone was to say to me that they couldn't do that I just know that that feeling would be awful so I can't wait for her to have that feeling and be back on the Dance Floor cuz yeah I know how much she would miss it and how much she wants that but I knew there could be a mountain to climb first hello hello all right yes please I'd known for a while that chemotherapy might be on the cards but the thought of it was filling me with Dread right then there we go thank you how many times do you have to inject yourself every day Jenny had already been through all of this not everybody has chemotherapy who has breast cancer but I had 6 months worth of chemotherapy it kills cells in your body um the bad cells which is the cancer um but also it kills good cells as well which is why you lose your hair it's just a grueling process okay so if you need chemo where where are your thoughts now well you know how much a dirt one chemo yeah I know I'm like a change like one moment I'm like yep let's just do it let's embrace it let's go for it let's if we're going to do it let's do it do this and do it positively and let's just go for it and then when you have time to think then I'm like no not doing it I think it's making me ill I know what it's like to be ill because I spent a lot of my life out is that it's flaring up my crones cuz why would I want to do that and using my hair is a massive factor to me cuz I you know I'm a proper girly girl and I love dressing up I love judging wear my glamorous dresses competitions you know shows everything do I mean so I think like that's a mess like the way you look you know I want to dance school with kids instantly they going to look at me in no meal thing is everything is your decision but you have to be guided Don't You by the professionals yep yep yep I think she's still holding on to that very slight possibility that somebody is going to say it's okay if you don't have chemo yeah yeah yeah yeah well you've seen a few oncologists so you know well exactly but I've always known that once the results of the tests on my tumor came back I'd have to make a decision so based on these figures here is how they work out whether you need chemo or not so I'm grade three stage two was that where you was stage two yeah stage two because it hasn't hit your lymph nodes or spread anywhere else and it it's based on the size of your tumor and all those kinds of things then this is like science the absolute benefit of chemotherapy having the chemo basically doubles your chances of stopping a reoccurrence that that's that's really what you've got how you've got to look at it so so what are you thinking now after you've seen the oncologist his words was we've got a good chance of curing this which made me a bit like what you mean good chance I think that's because they can't officially say you're cured from breast cancer until you've been healthy for 5 years so if you haven't had a recurrence in the first 5 years and everything is fine then they say yeah we've got we've we've done this the peace of mind is that you know that once you start the chemo it's zapping it clearing it all up isn't it yeah that's what he said wasn't it it is I think I've just got to prepared to do it haven't I the doctor told me I was going to need really strong chemotherapy um every 2 weeks and I needed eight sessions and then knew that was it that I'm not going to be a bble to dance now for months I was absolutely gutted I knew that completely wiped me out for strictly I knew that's it chemo wasn't the only thing on my mind there was something else the doctors had thrown at us I just said um what about to start in a family cuz this is something Ben and I were about to begin and he said to me because k destroys your eggs there's a possibility it might cause fertility issues and then he said and if I need chemo I'll need to look at fertility treatment to save my so obviously that was a big blow then is you got two [Music] blows you got the blow cancer and then the fertility issue Andy really wants children and she's she was actually ready for them now obviously I want you know to have kids as well so you know it's difficult we're going today to speak to a fertility specialist I just want to know that I have good options at the moment I don't know all I want to hear the words is with can do [Music] something the main concern for someone like Amy would be that certain chemotherapeutic drugs they can impact the eggs that are left inside her ovaries and in some patients Unfortunately they never have restoration of their function within their ovaries and unfortunately won't be able to have any children in the future first one just really sorry to meet you under these circumstances I know that you've been having a a really tough time yeah had surgery with been two weeks ago and then I'm here doing this yeah of course yeah it's been a a real really F everything's been so fast yeah so because there's a little bit of time between now and you starting your chemotherapy there are some things that we can do now um to try and preserve your fertility for the future so hopefully after your breast cancer treatment has finished we might be able to help you have that family I know that's really really important to you so we give you injections to grow the follicles inside your ovaries then we do a simple procedure called an egg collection um once you get the eggs out we can hopefully use some Ben sperm to then inseminate those eggs and form some embryos for you those embryos would then get stored uh for later use unfortunately fertility preservation is always successful and so um we need to ensure that patients are aware of the fact that it it may not work and a warm welcome to you all for the marriage of Benjamin Adrian Martin Jones and Amy Elizabeth Margaret D our first wedding anniversary and I couldn't believe we were about to start fertility treatment like literally 2 weeks from surgery like and you're straight into that Whirlwind of emotions so you're into surgery where you're tied you saw and accepting a new boob into fertility [Music] treatment you just got to suck it up and deal with it and then they like saying like been like two weeks later Cho so yeah and all whil all your best friends having babies or discussing having babies the real challenge in infertility preservation is we just don't want to delay treatment from now until the start of her chemotherapy I think we are around 3 weeks so there's a little bit of a Race Against Time this meant horrible daily injections come on Amy come on Amy come on Amy and I hate needles then luckily I've have some brilliant friends so I didn't have to do it alone so guess it's going to do it for me you don't mind DM also what did I show you last night H I got to see the new boob what did you think nice boob you know what she said you should get other [Laughter] Wonder okay just do it yeah I don't like seeing Amy going through injection but I've just got to be there and do what Amy needs when she needs it there we go all done kind of stinks like a bee how are you feeling yeah you okay yeah right so this going to be me doing your red collection today I was so nervous this was my only window to do an egg collection before my chemo started in 2 week's time [Music] that was a massive massive struggle those fertility weeks okay shop scratch Amy it's only when that chance of having children is suddenly taken away from you that you realize just how much you want them I can remember the next six days waiting for the results being the longest days of my life oh hello am speaking to Amy yes you're speaking to Amy uh this is we Center hi yeah so I'm just to feure on you know how the developed and how many we have Frozen yes so in the end we have Frozen five five that's amazing five oh my goodness amazing guess what there's five little amum F in the freezer right that's amazing yeah that was an absolutely amazing moment and it just I don't know it was a bit of sunlight in a dark place basically the relief was just immense I needed to have a shot at something no matter what at that time I just needed that little bit of Hope in August I should have been back with my strickly family rehearsing all the group dances for the [Music] series instead I was facing the first of eight chemo treatments side effects then you can have diarrhea bit of nausea I was really scared and just wanting to be on the Dance Floor rather than where I really was you may be more prone to bruising and bleeding while you're on the chemo you may feel more tired than normal it's a strong chemo and you can lose your hair okay you're just going to be into here Amy if that's all right okay um if you get on the bed and just make yourself com little Machinery here so you can make it as comt your thank you are you okay [Music] yeah it's fine Mom I can do this today honestly the the first one's the worst and then you know what to expect it's fine I really don't want to do this nobody ever does but you can do it CU you're strong okay you can do this you can you feel like you have no control over for anything but the one thing I could fight for was my hair yeah and that side yeah okay so scalp coer on you feel it how cold it is it's got a long tube that goes to a cooling system and then that cooling system will freeze your hair follicles to about minus5 he basically trying to stop that blood that contains the chemo from getting to your scalp the cold cap was a chance to try to keep my hair a way of hanging onto the old me so I'm on my second walk of the day you won believe it's only 2 days since she's had Cho yay what did she say earlier Dad she could have done strictly today day [Music] easy but by chemo 2 the cold cup started to get tough the cold cup has been a lot more painful it's given me like a constant headache and pain behind my eyes this time which has made me feel a bit sick so two down that's a quarter done now six to go still Rel by the time of my third treatment I was getting sicker and sicker I had terrible ulcers blood clots and at my lowest life threatening sepsis and I was starting to doubt that the cold cap was working I think if I don't see it I don't know how much is coming out so I'm not getting worked up and upset okay Amy so there's no ball patches no there's only the little there's one area mhm okay thank you okay so it's just going in man youve done so well you're halfway through yeah number four yeah okay it's worse than normal I think is is less here in it yeah you're not going to get an extra gold medal for for withstanding the cold cap you've got to think how it makes you feel you've done fabulous but obviously each time you're having it it's grinding you down but you're stronger than anybody else or no and I'll be gutted afterwards tonight if I don't go through it oh no I EXC it's excruciator yeah when you take it off it doesn't mean that you found you need to take that decision yes K huh just going to come too too much pain see you've doing amazing can you see around the side where it joins there's like two clips could you just done CL well done and it's still cold at the minute so you've got an extra few minutes of it and it's going to defrost well done that's really hard for her to choose that don't get upset you've made the best decision for you you've done a ma will make you feel fabulous regardless take thisit off and put it over your head that's it sorry what you saying sorry for [Music] sorry within days my hair started to go really quickly it was terrifying I'm thinking why am I putting myself with the next so many days of this watching it fall out when I'm going to lose it anyway hello hello hello have we got anyone else wanting to shave there no Ching I need to take control like it's the only thing I can be in control of don't think you have to be strong if you want to cry you can cry if you want to laugh you want to laugh but last hle boob gone eggs gone last bit my hair let's do this w w she's the kind of person that likes a lot of people around her and I think Amy wanted it as a celebration you know this is something that she can take control of and during the process there's not very much you can take control of like she always does she's really fed it really bravely again yeah yeah she has yeah she's always Brave when he comes to these things yeah she's done really well [Music] again ready two oh my God I like four [Music] patches haven't going to pick up the ears anymore anyway afterwards I did feel liberated and I didn't feel as bad bad as I thought it was and at the time cuz I guess I still had my eyebrows and eyelashes right we need to finish the Tik Tock off don't we like I just maybe in and go like like that yeah you know dancing's part of my life it's who I am you it's in my blood and you know to make that day the best it could be of course I was going to add a dancing element I wanted to make the best out of the worst situation I can remember filming it and not knowing am I going to share this or not because no one apart from my friends and family had so far seen me Bal so I took a deep breath and then press the button the response I had was like incredible you know it makes you smile it's positive van that's again what I wanted to do I wanted to give people hope and it also reminded me that he or no he I was still a dancer but the feeling didn't last most people online were super sweet and encouraging but then a few didn't seem to get what I was trying to do at all look at this one look at the top one it's been so many times sharing my story where I have wished I didn't people were like right to me saying you're such a narcissist look at me the biggest attention seeker ever who else would dance in the garden whilst having to cut their hair [Music] off but these are people that probably spend their whole life just trying to cause other people distress because that's the kind of people they are at the time I'd already felt a guy and my whole everything about me tripped away my identity and that and of course I would have done anything in the world to actually be not dancing in my friends God and about to shap my hair but to be dancing with my best friends on Strictly and then people write to me going you know even stage four I'm like that's really you know it's so bad it was I didn't even know what my outcome was so for people to be like messaging like that I already felt hard to even look in a mirror for anybody going through cancer it's enough to be going through it never mind with any added trolls and there is no textbook on how you should deal with it there's no right or wrong you do what you need to do um and just be kind guys if we can be anything let's be kind yeah I you and you've lost your hair you then look more like a cancer patient and I didn't want that at the back wigs were like my safety blanket cheers I wanted to be able to go out shut the door be me and I am me with [Music] cancer welcome Come Dancing 2023 we are of course missing one of our professional dancers our gorgeous Amy Dowden is on well and she can't be with us for the start of the series it was like my life had stopped but the world had kept spinning she's our wealth dragon and we know she'll be back soon it was a really low time then strictly said that as soon as I felt well enough I should come and be part of the show hello everybody a h oh my good I love beautiful I'm good how are you yeah really good you're very ay today like you're very home yes you're exactly I love yeah it's so nice to be back back at again going back was like what I needed to have the Glam and the costume back on so I did feel like welcomed and loved yeah and Tracy in makeup did her best to make me feel really great but also I found it really tough as well because ultimately I was an ed D but then I took my wig off and then a few of the pros and a few the crew and that W past me and they like all right Amy no one even mentioned it I was just like oh it's really not a thing and the live show went up the audience were like clapping buzzing and it was literally seconds before and I wasn't sure what I was going to do to wear the wig or not now it's time for the terms and conditions and to read them is a very special member of our strickly family we have missed her so much and are delighted she is well enough to be back with us tonight please welcome the one and only Amy dower all for the short now for 151 call to the long number for 151 plus your network access the outpour of love I received was just phenomenal one particular lady reached out Amy Dowden choosing not to wear a wig on strippy tonight has shown every little girl going through chemo that bold is [Music] beautiful it was the pick that I really needed at the time and I realized that bold is [Applause] beautiful the positive response it really helped her morale and it really meant the world to her from that moment she had a different I don't know she was more confident in herself definitely ladies and gentleman Amy [Music] you are all amazing NHS Ultra Heroes right here goes see you all later yeah yeah okay Amy for the final time we done it guys there a bell on our Keem award you ring when you finish your treatment I've waited 16 weeks to ring that Bell her body has been through a lot physically and mentally and there was a big healing process to start then ring this SP three time three times well it's told to Clearly say my treat when then this for is running I'm on my way y ringing it saying goodbye to that side of the treatment and you know giving yourself a pattern of back the reward you got through it you did it 4 months ago it was hard to imagine this day but yeah she's just been so strong and determined that we knew she'd get there there's no words subscribe really watch ring that Bell and read out those words best we ever [Music] here we go three two one let's go one two and three one two and three that's it hey guys I've just had the most amazing exciting call just when I'd given up hope and aord of being able to dance on this year strickly I've just had a call to say they would like me to dance in the semifinal which means I've got just 4 weeks to start getting getting fit again but this is something that I really want I like you dancing with I know I've put weight on I just my muscles nothing feels like me so it's going to be tough I know that I'm prepared to do whatever it takes three two one done I see but I had no idea what would happen just 4 days later I just doing some gentle exercise in my lounge nothing too stra us and I went over on my ankle and unfortunately I've broken my [Music] foot just absolutely gutted chemotherapy does cause weaker bones but we will never know that's the cause so yeah that's me out now I just felt like gutwrench in once again strule were amazing thank [Music] you even with a broken foot they made sure I could get back out on that dance floor [Applause] I was so glad to be there but I wanted to do so much [Music] more I you know hobbled off stage and then watched all the pros Dan and do what they love and I still wanted to be doing that and I can remember at the end of the day still heartbroken because that's what I wanted to be but when I saw the messages I realized it doesn't matter that I look and feel different What mattered was I was there hi Amy you're right how you doing yeah not too bad thank you on in New Year 2024 and I was on a mission to get fit again that's it well I me bit quicker if we can I was 100% naive about the end of chemo and I guess I didn't realize I was going to have such a long journey of recovery ahead of me a big moment for me was going for my very first MRI scan after chemo naturally a bit anxious it's always that little bit of you know in your mind what if cuz you just don't want to go through everything all over again uh you know the the fear of it coming back is there how are you now um yes so in my last MRI it showed no evidence of disease which is the best I could have hoped for now I'm delighted life resumes for [Music] me these scans are super important there's no sign of Cancer those are the words that everybody wants to hear when you've had cancer really happy for Amy getting through that first MRI felt like a fresh start I was on my way I even treed 100 km in the braen beacons and when I was there I got the best news ever so today I have been announced back on Strictly Come Dancing [Music] so today it's my yearly scans so I've got my mamogram and MRI you know this is going to be my life now every year for the next 5 years you know having these scans I'm just now waiting for the results to come back there still no evidence of disease and then there'll be nothing stopping me then 7 weeks before strictly rehearsals I got a dance for an audience for the very first time in over a year a little bit nervous that's you know getting through it I think once theyve got got through this I'm going to feel much better ladies and gentlemen the show will begin short [Music] [Applause] [Music] should you know I've got a new body on that dance floor now I know I've lost my speed I've lost my stamina I've lost my flexibility Ben keeps telling me you'll get it back you'll get it back but my confidence has been knocked a lot I doubt myself even now [Music] guys I just took my first dance SP in [Applause] P there's certain things I was so worried about like the flip lifts because I've got a new upper body and actually went really well so I can believe in myself there I think she's achieved something on the step to getting back to her normal self and I think going out there and doing it has probably give her a lot of confidence [Applause] back everything was falling into place but then I had a call back about my recent [Music] scan hi come in have a seat you you're right okay so um can I just go through where I think we are we could just see a few faint little dots we think just little dots of calcium the calcification is suggestion of some sort of change occurring within the breast the expectation is that they you not Sinister but until we do the biopsy we can't give you that reassurance okay should I take you through to where you need to go yeah let's do it yeah let's do it let's go the little dots the concern is this that bit before an invasive breast cancer the extent and distribution is quite widespread in that breast so if we did in Amy's case confirm that this was a precursor for for breast cancer then it would be a difficult conversation we're trying to be as positive as possible because we don't know whether it's going to be good news or bad news but every time you've got an ache or a pain you're thinking is this cancer this is what we have to live with forever once you've had cancer thank you and it's crushing knowing that it doesn't just impact me have a cou of te is there it's another blow put the cat on put the cat on so devastated for me again and um I think yeah I think for us this um it has taken quite a trouble on us is they not know when isn't it they not know when yeah on and just just wish I could have it all for her I feel really anxious and obviously worried and is bringing back all the memories of what I went through a year ago but I just got to try and remain positive and you know try not to take myself to those worrying places hello hi it is my Ben hi Ben nice to see you I'll cut straight to the chase the biopsies thankfully have shown benign changes so we have not identified anything cancerous thank you so much you sleep now good good good amazing thank you so much when the consultant told me there was no evidence of disease it felt surreal thank you we haven't had good news much so this is good thank you I am so relieved it's unreal you know good news positive news so it's really good feel I can set [Music] free you just want to dance and sing and show tell everybody it's just the most amazing feeling really yeah her plans now for the rest of this year she's got it all to look forward [Music] to there were so many times over the last year I thought the strictly dream was slipping away my head is so full of emotion in the past year I've had a masectomy fertility treatment chemotherapy sepsis flood clots a broken foot and finally it's time for for me to be able to get back on that dance floor sometimes I felt very alone and I'm not alone on this journey unfortunately one in two people get diagnosed with cancer um yeah and I think you know not to always be the happy smiley dancing Amy it's okay we're here finally back finally here like there was so many times I just didn't think this was ever going to be possible I can remember being here at the strictly final no hair broken foot unable to dance properly waiting for my results and being petrified just thinking am I ever going to be able to do that again and now I'm back good morning and there's me with my on can absolutely understand what it must feel for her you know to be back doing it leing it the magic moment I think for both of us will be when strickly actually goes live and there's like seconds to go and I just want to look at Amy's face and and see how excited she is like I'm literally getting Goosebumps now my dancing heart is beaming right now a year ago I was fighting for my life I would have done anything to be stood where I am now I will make the most of every second every beat on that dance [Music] floor for details of organizations which offer advice and support with cancer or infertility go online to the BBC Action Line website dreaming these days go by so fast and oh I just need I'm just needing more