Paige Beechey breaks silence on her The Block experience

the other day I posted on my Instagram some questions and honestly I think it reached about 5,000 people or something which is just crazy um and we received hundreds of questions that Jesse and I were planning on answering but I think after watching Monday night's episode I think that everyone probably deserves this video more what I really want to talk about in this video because you know I'm kind of annoyed I think I've put up with a lot throughout this season and I've said very little but the way that they just handled that whole mental health departure was just such a gross display way of a TV show trying to cash grab for like relevancy and it's really clear that they're trying to step into their woke era and um this was very opportunistic for them at the expense of mental health and then specifically my situation of mental health so I I think a great place to start is the first two weeks because obviously they've just made the whole four of our weeks on the show quite a well wind so the first two weeks Jesse and I were pretty good we were smooth sailing you know producers were calling me an Energizer Bunny they were commending me on how well I was handling the pressures and the stress nothing broke my stride there was like no tantrums no suks no arguments no nothing for two weeks and that's obviously not what you guys saw that wasn't the narrative that they pushed because in those first two weeks um they just completely made it something it was not and they did that in post- production they did that by literally putting full sentences in my mouth and that's what we like to call Franken bites so if you want to go look up that terminology it explains it perfectly they were chopping bits and Bobs from everywhere and just smooshing them together so everything was in the context that they wanted but it was glaringly obvious that things weren't matching up they were taking Master interviews from like every single week and putting them all in those two weeks as well to pull relevancy wherever they could get it and um they were just blat ly cutting conversations to make me look crazy so we were quite frustrated with the first two weeks of how we were depicted because it was just an editing like show if you really look back on it all and we're just sitting there like what it was such a shame that you didn't get to see all of our good moments they did leave a few things in there you know like funny little quips and situations and that's more of what it was like they didn't show any footage of us with anyone we always hung out we went to places together they didn't show any footage of us with our Builders because no that would be way way too nice because we were to everyone right um so that was pretty much our first two weeks we were good but because and where it all really starts is week three and because they wanted more of a storyline they had to create a story line for our eventual departure that's why they made the first two weeks absolutely crazy the third week H God and I'm actually going to say first I'm not saying that you know everything was rainbows and butterflies for our first 2 weeks I obviously had a really day in week two I was going through some personal stuff and I was just having a day and I'm not one to hide or conceal really what I'm going through So that obviously plays out on camera um but yeah Jesse had a breakdown day three um uh like what else what else I know a lot of people had a problem with the Kinsman thing but oh my God if I was so bad and Kinsman did nothing wrong why were Kinsmen allowed to ask a producer if they could apologize to me off of camera if I was so bad why did they feel the need to apologize to me and got granted by The Producers to do it off camera and if I was so bad why did one of kinsman's associated sort of suppliers come up give me a hug and apologize on their behalf as well so all you see is me flying off the handles and storming out of Kinsmen um but what you don't see is how awful they really were and this isn't the first time that someone had a sort of experience like another contestant in the season had an experience like I did so it is what it is I really respected the apology it was water under the bridge we moved on because I was so excited to work with Kinsman um but yeah so that that's our first two weeks we didn't complete a bathroom Jesse and I were never butur about it never we were actually really happy with what we did and they did go oh the disappointment blah blah blah he's a chippy whatever like we actually just didn't care there was so many things out of our control that week our Tyler was there until like 5:30 on Sunday morning like we actually couldn't have done anything more we were awake for 2 days straight hallucinating like we were so sleep deprived because we gave everything to that room when you sleep deprived for 2 days you actually just walk around and you feel drunk as well where it all started to change was the start of week three we um it's going to be like a little bit of a hard conversation so I don't want to I don't know get emotional or anything the the start of week three we move out of our tents and we move into our guest bedrooms that we've now completed um without no prayer briefing no warning and absolutely no consent crew start coming into our rooms in the morning to film us whilst we're sleeping um um being someone of a background with sexual assault that was um her it was an absolute horrific experience for me um I started having like really bad PTSD symptoms come up in week three um because you're in a dark room you're asleep and sometimes you can just like hear there's some things going on I'm not a great sleeper anyway I get sleep paralysis I wake up really like confused um I've dealt with that um as a result of obvious things um you wake up in your bedroom it's pitch black and you have three just black figures two or three figures standing over you bit and it's terrifying and that's that's how you wake up and maybe that's okay with some people and that's what I was trying to tell myself and you know just try and like beat myself out of all these sort of like PTSD things that were coming back I would just be frozen I'd be frozen in my bed I would be paralyzed and I would be having like no joke and I feel like really ashamed of this for some reason like I would have like full on hallucinations sorry I started to spiral very quickly from these mornings um because some of the times Jesse wasn't even in bed with me and I was just alone so most mornings in week three I was trying to fight off big episodes of derealization lots of confusion anxiety and the worst of all was my level of paranoia and all these sort of scenarios that were playing in my head the whole time I was just trying to punish myself into being normal and being present for the show because as a producer told me in week one I needed to know what was block related and what was not block rated when it came to mental health that's what they told me on day three so so I really tried to push all my mental health to the side but anything was like setting me off any little thing I was nervous anxious paranoid all day but I really did try my hardest to be okay um I eventually spoke to Jesse about it and I had a break down to him saying exactly what I was going through and that the morning filming and then coming into our bedroom needed to stop because I was I was kind of losing it at that point um so I had these conversations with Jesse he actually told a producer he told a producer what I was going through and then the morning visits stopped by by the time that the morning visits stopped it was just sadly a little too late for me I was off the deep end and drowning and as a lovely camera radio station actually called me um I was probably going a little cuckoo like clinically at that point and what is really upsetting about this whole scenario that was unfolding for me is number one the produc producers were privy to the severity of what I was experiencing no one came to check in on me no one provided me details with to get help because you know I don't think the problem was what they wanted for our storyline they saw an opportunity to capitalize on this mental health they saw an opportunity for the endgame of this what is also a big let down is the fact that I was miked up when I was having a breakdown to Jesse and when I was having these conversations with Jesse as well so just like our argument they were listening but never came in to check but when it um is an argument and it suits their story line that they are contriving um a producer is convenient there like conveniently there and conveniently cares so I don't I don't know riddle me that so yeah I was spiraling I was dealing with very real mental health issues and my world was imploding and I was holding on to every aspect of that whole experience with like just the finest tether I was trying to keep everything together and I think a lot of people have seen through this just this narrative that doesn't make sense so week four rolls around and Jesse and I have quite a big argument on the Friday night I'm just pretty much done I didn't want to be there I wasn't feeling like myself I was incredibly heightened I was incredibly scared every day as well and just dealing with those emotions on top of all that pressure and stress was sending me it was just absolutely sending me so we had that argument and that's when a producer decides to come in and Gaslight us about our relationship saying this isn't the first time we had you find at at this time of night first of all the time wasn't even correct on the TV and we never fought at nighttime we fought during the day like like we just didn't fight at nighttime so they're literally just full of and they had a narrative because they start editing whilst we're filming so they had a narrative ready to go my true mental health didn't fit into that box and I also just don't think that it fit in with this perfect image that they were going to curate that they're so Progressive and they care about mental health um which is a load of absolute N/A um so that happens and they actually call a pych in as well so we can go speak to somebody so the psych comes in on the Sunday night after reveals and I'm just feeling such a sense of relief and I'm like thank God I can talk to someone about what I'm going through and I was just ready to get everything off my chest I didn't go in there with the intent to talk about my relationship with Jesse our relationship wasn't crumbling were we budding heads yes were we fighting and arguing and bickering yes was it the end of the world no it just it just wasn't was it very heightened and emotionally charged yeah like look at the absolute crazy scenario we're in and then actually put real Mental Health on top of that it's just it's it's too much so we meet with the psych and this is just a whole another kettle of fish which I'm not even really going to delve into because it was an awful experience one of The Producers said something really off about that guy four of us contestants actually ended up appointing with the pych at different times throughout the season and without even knowing it we all said the same thing about how off he was how manipulative he was and just really he was like the most unsafe person I feel like I've ever been around so Monday rolls around of week five and that's the time where we decide that we're going to leave the show we're there with you know the producers and the psych and what really ties all of this together and is just so disheartening is one of the executive producers said to me the btim and I mean verbatim he said we've been watching you spiral for 2 weeks we've been watching you spiral for 2 weeks now if you want any assistance with lining up that timeline we left Monday week five 2 weeks prior puts us at Monday week 3 the exact time we moved into to our guest bedroom so whilst you're seeing this one narrative on TV we're living this complete other narrative and that's what I think is such a disgusting manipulation and capitalization on our mental health scenario to cash grab at being Progressive and having care for mental health it's so transparent and it is so tacky it just has really pissed me off because mental health is a very real thing and people are finally being open and talking about it and this is how it kind of like gets thrown back in our faces you want to treat the audience as if they're this dumb and just Gaslight a whole situation on TV but anyway so he says to me we've been watching new spiral for 2 weeks and I stand up for myself and I say if that is the case why did no one come up and talk to me and this is how they love to chat to you over there literally so many people go we sent you an email a pathetic get lost in your inbox email and it was really at that moment where I knew this was a place I should not be because the fact that the block capitalizes on your personal life and totally exploits it and thinks their duty of care extends as far as a corporate email like that is it's just so messed up and it is a gross display of negligence for our very real like for just duty of care like I don't get it and they're better than this but that's the thing it is such a toxic process of a show that they don't want to be better than that because they want you to crack they want you to crumble they want this to be a TV show of just drama under the Guist of a familyfriendly renovation show so whilst they were pretending to care about our mental health as well we found out all the horrible and just really disgusting slanderous things that they were saying to the cast about us once we left and this was all to build on this toxic narrative and to get them to comment on it through their words it like we are so close with the classmates and we've talked to each other about everything and I felt very let down by the people saying these things it was it was insane and I feel really sorry for our classmates as well because now you have a whole bunch of people that have trusted you and well they didn't really trust at the time um they took everything with a grain of salt because these people were we all just knew how much they were trying to manipulate all of us um and we would talk about it all the time so I'm very grateful that a lot of them took everything with a grain of salt but we spoke about it all and it's just it's so grimy it's just so grimy they happily manipulated Snippets of one of my worst mornings but failed to show you when I was crying to camera saying how confused I was and how I didn't know who Jesse was because that wouldn't fit the storyline would it they took symptoms of deeper difficulties spun them on their head used me on the show used me again in the edit and then used me again for their agenda for mental health I feel for all the people Beyond this small Corner who have been made to speak on and passed judgment on a scenario that was completely curated and manipulated for the sake of staying relevant I feel for the past contestants who still hurt and who are too afraid to come out of the wood work I feel for the beautiful young women on the crew who are sick of the boys club and ultimately I feel for the audience who have had a wonderful show stripped from them and now have to watch a show driven from such a place of arrogance and ego the block is over to me it was over to me the second I heard of everyone else's experience and experienced it firsthand myself all I want to do now is implore the network that when this show continues there needs to be serious reform on how you prepare contestants just purely based on respect for the human beings you are cash grabbing off so that is it from me I just thought it was important to make this video to lift the veil on that pathetic Monday Night episode um they thought it was really going to hit they thought it was really going to land they were talking to us about this is going to start such a good conversation on Mental Health like I think you're going to be really surprised on how good the mental health is going to come across like it is so cringee um and it didn't land didn't hit so that is that life moves on we move on eventually I mean the show is still going for another two months we're going to watch it to support all of our wonderful wonderful classmates especially Maddie and Charlotte who we actually really close with and we're also going to continue to watch it to support Zach Nathan and Jack who are so amazing we know that things don't work out but we don't think that speaks on anyone personally it was probably just a really unusual situation and maybe the girls just needed a fresh start if I ever build a house again Zach you are going to be right there and I'll pay for all your accommodation in wa just so you can build our house I also want to end this video with a caveat on majority of the crew I mean they are so wonderful they are so lovely and I think what is very admirable is that the toxicity at the top doesn't NE necessarily always trickle down and I think it's really exciting that the young people on the crew will hopefully work their way up and um get to the top one day and they're really good people so I think that will be a really nice breath of fresh air for this show