Nikocado’s New Video Is Honestly Just Depressing

and everyone wonders why I'm posting less I'm not happy I don't like what I've done I don't like what I've become I don't like what I look like ncoc card's recent video is so incredibly tragic it makes all of his previous breakdowns seem like they were happy moments simply titled by nikocado talks about deeply regretting his time on YouTube in the process admitting to financial ruin and the ways in which Fame destroyed his life completely the 41 video begins on terrible footing as after only 24 seconds Nick's already almost on the verge of tears just going to tell you right off the bat I'm on the edge of a break down most likely by the end of this video I'm going be flipping out the reason for this is quickly revealed Nick had begun to realize YouTube was actually a terrible Choice my life was going great so I decided to do this YouTube life and I'm sitting here thinking I have thrown away the best years of my life admitting he never would have started if given a second chance I wish I could turn back the clock I wish I could go back in time I wish I would never have done YouTube I wish I would have never decided that this would be a fun way to make a living that this would be a fun way to have a life this would be a fun way to provide for my family he further hints as to why my job is to face people who hate me who don't care for me that don't aren't even interested in me they're here for someone f yet he's interrupted by his pza delivery leading to the video's only moment where Nick isn't totally miserable however the second he takes a bite you can see niik card's dark realization that he despises his life completely I don't like this I don't like this channel I don't like what I'm doing with my life I had goals I had dreams and I threw it all away to eat food Nick hating his job isn't unexpected but his Claim about money is a little more surprising the irony is I've barely made any money for the past 2 3 years across ncoc card's five biggest channels he's done 1.85 billion views total which by applying a conservative ad rate of $3 per th000 views means he's made 5.5 million from YouTube ads alone he also charges $500 per Cameo and has over 1,000 reviews meaning if you include maybe another thousand people who didn't review he's also likely made over a million do from this then Nick also has a patreon and his iconic line of merch which when combined with everything else could mean total career earnings of almost 10 million so how could it be possible he didn't make much money well Nic aado would elaborate I hate that my job is showing up here and hoping I get paid from it because the YouTube Gods strike me down 3 years ago and it's never improved Nick same to imply his videos were rarely monetized which has been happening for over 3 years we tested this by watching his content on a fresh new account and found that most videos on more nicardo don't even play one single ad on the contrary most of his third Channel videos have ads but his earnings didn't matter anyway because any money he did make has now been fully wasted it wasn't even worth it I barely made any money and the money I did make I lost to the extent that Nic aado is now struggling to survive I hate my finances I hate my husband I hate my family I hate my friends I hate my work I hate this country I hate this place to pay so much just to survive as a result he begins to consider even moving to a different country I'm literally about to move to Indonesia I have a friend there right now and do you know how much she paid for her dinner $224 which Nick has actually done before having spent 3 years living in South America he acknowledges the easiest solution would have simply been to make a different type of content and I knew if I would have done something more age appropriate or more whatever friendly what was this all for I don't even like this or more tragically stick with his previous love of playing violin I felt like I had purpose to create beautiful music to inspire people to give people hope when they're going through horrible it seems nic's mukbangs have destroyed his previous talent I used to play the violin and my fingers got too fat they get stuck in the strings they go Bo and then I can't play anymore missing violin as an art form that actually impacted people's lives all it takes is one person to come to a concert or a show and you change their life because you inspire them to do something similar or go into the Arts or something and I'm sitting here eating food in oille it's your fault nicardo further added I was very good I got a full ride scholarship to my school could you school have you known about it I went to the juliard for two I know what that is with juliard being the world's most prestigious Music School a user on Reddit found Nick's full list of violin achievements of which there were certainly many and it therefore makes sense that he was good enough to teach have you ever had a job yeah many violin lessons I used to play at weddings a YouTuber named a violin mechanic also watched all of Nick's violin videos concluding he was near professional right from the bat I can tell that this guy plays fantastically into and it same disres from other people was what Nick missed more than anything else when I would finish my shows I would sign autographs people would wait in a line to take photos of me which I think some people would know but it's for a different reason it's not because I just inspired them it's because I am a fat funny meme by playing on the street Nick attracted massive crowds but as he sits there thinking for over 20 seconds he realizes what he truly misses is the respect he had for himself and I had a sense of pride a sense of Honor a sense of happiness I felt closer to God actually in comparison to his music he's lost all motivation to mukbang I felt like I was doing something that I was called to do I don't feel that with these videos which can definitely be felt throughout the entire video I can't even fake sit here and fake this for you I'm not going to he tries to talk about the food but clearly doesn't care let's try these bread sticks H it's fine as Nick's instead preoccupied with the thought of him retiring and if I just quit YouTube who's going to Care 100 couple hundred people okay I can't watch nikocado slurp noodles and eat Takis oh my life's not the same I used should watch nikocado eat Takis it's a topic he's been considering throughout the previous year so why doesn't he quit and do something else completely well he addresses this also I can't even get a normal job I mean imagine if I went to apply doing some type of management because I'm so known or there's so many horrible things I've put myself into situations it's like it's going to create a polarizing environment you know how many people hate me they don't want to work with me it's like great so now I've really limited myself sadly Nick is probably right if he was spotted working retail it would be a story instantly but there are still other YouTube ideas that could also be successful a YouTuber named us gang went unexpectedly viral when he began a series titled try to lose weight in 100 weeks well Nick showed in his recent video that he was already losing weight I recently lost 89 lb but I'm still morbidly obese I can't even fit in a chair which has been proven as an element the audience likes to follow combine this with nic's notoriety and you've got a mega viral series that could fix his channel health and declining self-esteem I'm so ugly I don't want to be ugly whilst giving him respect from every single viewer imagine if he disappeared off of YouTu for a year or two lost all the weight and built muscle became an absolute Chad and returned to YouTube as a violent YouTuber the respect he'd receive would be insane the only problem is Nick's completely terrified of trying something new the worst part is I have an Escape Route and I'm so afraid to take it at this point however is there even another alternative I'm halfway through life I don't want to spend the next half being like this even Nick himself admitted he can't keep doing mukbangs you can't can't keep betting on the dying horse you just can't and in my stupid mind it's like it will change it'll get better oh if I pump out more content it just I'm not liked I'm just not liked and that's that's the that's the fact and it hurts and I doubt Nick's as disliked as he clearly thinks there are loads of different people who appreciate the meme while his series he made with oompaville helped restore his reputation the honesty in his recent video also makes him much more likable especially in the segments where he takes responsib ability and it's nothing to do with you really it's everything to do with me still nikar is convinced that everybody hates him and I'm here filming for people who hate me wow my life is so cool making the video's main point all the more obvious he desperately needs to try something new it's like a dead relationship you're clinging to something dead stop living in the past