Very Demure, Very Mindful, Very Cutesy: All Things I Am NOT | girl math podcast

What Does Demure Mean? hello guys welcome back to the gmath podcast I your host Corey blonde and today I want to talk about how I am just not very demure I'm not very cutesy I'm not very demure okay it's a trend I specifically cannot relate to I don't know why a part of me kind of finds it cringey I feel like it's a great Trend cuz I think it does have a positive impact on women I want to talk about my experiences funny ones weird ones that I just don't think is very Dem of me and what doesn't make me demure because okay let me give you the term not many people know I got it wrong I thought demure meant classy reserved modest and shy typically used of a woman a Dem young lady I feel like I kind of got the gist of it then the way I see it is just Class A woman who has class which I feel like is not me I don't feel like very womanly woman so that might be why but yeah let's get into it I've written a few on my notes app because they just sprung to mind and it's it's one of those moments where it's just it's haunting me the experiences that don't make me demure are coming back to haunt me when Smoking & Vaping someone starts smoking around me I don't just hold my breath I'm not very cutesy I'm not very demure I have to hold my hand over my mouth and make such a big deal out of it and then I'm like holding my breath at the same time and I feel like I'm going to pass out because I'm like not being funny I came out for fresh air I don't want want to smell your cigarette the thing that triggers me the most is because I live in London obviously there's pollution as it is but first thing in the morning I'll go walk my dogs I haven't even barely woken up and I'm breathing in Barry smoke at the left of me and I'm like it just angers me so much and it's not very Goosey and it's not very demure of me because I could just you know mind my own business and just hold my breath and walk but no I have to make a whole deal of it and give them a death a because I just can't do it mate I just can't do it Swimming so number one something that happened to me recently I went swimming I don't think swimming is a very demure sport not if you're me anyway I thought you know what I'm going to pick up a new hobby every time I pick up a new hobby I reach a hurdle or I go to the third session and I just give up but with swimming I only got to the one session okay it's traumatized me I ended up getting some kind of infection and I don't know what it is and even antibiotics didn't kill it so God knows what that was I don't think I'm ever going to touch pool water again I went on Amazon and I was like you know what I'm actually going to dedicate myself to this I started looking up Tik toks on how to properly swim what a Swim's build looks like after a while I was like you know what this is going to be a good source of cardio I went swimming looking like I just came fresh out of Amazon Prime I bought myself a swimming cap antifog swimming goggles a nose plug earplugs and a swimming suit anyway so as you can picture it that doesn't make me very demor when I did go swimming I had to go in the fast lane because the grandpas were in the slow lane and the medium Lane was where all the people like me were and I was just like there's too many people there I feel pressure if someone's behind me you know when I'm swimming I then have pressure that I have to go faster because someone's speeding up behind me there is no worse feeling than that I swear to God so I was like you know what I'm just going to have to risk it and go in the fast lanane so I can go at my own pace I only ended up doing 10 minutes bear in mind all that for just a 10-minute swim because I genuinely did not have the stamina I did one length there one length back and then I was like okay two-minute break what I didn't realize okay is you're not supposed to put your swimming cap over your ears cuz that my friends will lead to an ear infection because the water will get in your ear and it will not come out and I remember trying to shake it out for days and it didn't come out and that's probably why I'm I'm here now I didn't know that I'm I'm a very novice swimmer I just remember the Lifeguard staring at me after a couple lengths I must have I think I'm graceful but I'm clearly not because I was clearly flapping and splashing about that's not very demure of me that's not very cutesy not very mindful the thing is with picking up Hobbies is because I get so bored so easily or I lack motivation so easily I have to move on to something new and every time I start a new hobby I either get injured something happens to me or something is traumatizing me it's like why can't I just pick up a sport without getting injured I don't get it another Kim Kardashian KitKat thing that doesn't make me very cutesy very demure very mindful actually this might make me mindful this will make me mindful but not very demure I'm I got bought fancy chocolates Hotel chakala you know you get those alcohol chocolates me personally I don't drink alcohol there is nothing worse than the taste of alcohol with chocolate might be controversial but why the hell are we mixing those two together why are we mixing prco and chocolate together don't even like prco on its own let alone with chocolate okay why are you trying to ruin my taste buds at the time I was on antibiotics and I was like I'm not going to risk eating this alcohol so what did I do I ate the chocolate around it and I I just left the alcohol out and throw it in the bin you could say that's mindful but it's not very demure and it's not very cutesy cuz I just had chocolate everywhere and it wasn't very cute just like the way to be honest Kim Kardashian eats a Kit Kat very demure the way Kim Kardashian eats a Kit Kat is very demure very mindful of the carbs in between you know what I mean but I think she does eat the the middle bit but and then there's me and I just eat the chocolate around the alcohol because I don't like the taste of alcohol alone let alone with chocolate what the hell are they doing anyway let's ban that please can we sign a petition to ban alcohol chocolate anyone in the comments please let me know if you like alcohol chocolate I don't know a single person anyway Dumb Blonde & having Dyslexia dyslexia I don't think dyslexia makes me very cutesy very demure very mindful I mean I'm not very mindful if I have dyslexia anyway the mind isn't all there most the majority of the time I feel like even when I do think I've spelled something correctly or I have said something in the right word order of language I feel like I'm being mindful but I'm not I'm not because I can overthink a sentence to Oblivion and it still won't make sense I have to reread the same page of the book 10 times to understand what the hell is going on okay that's not very demure that's not very cutesy that's not very mindful like the amount of times I feel like I just lean into the dumb blonde stereotype and I don't mean to it's just maybe I just maybe The Stereotype is real you know but I wouldn't then say that people with dyslexia are dumb it's just really hard it's just really hard to be dyslexic sometimes and I hate how just because I'm blonde doesn't mean I'm D it's just I've got dyslexia you know I'm just dyslexic keeping your concert wristband Concert Wristbands on a week after the event doesn't make it very cutesy or doesn't make it very demure okay that is me I will wear that wristband until I can no longer breathe until it's really itchy and over stimulating me it you know I had a good time when I still have the wristband on weeks later and I feel like that was just a thing to do as a child I don't know growing up it was just a thing I don't know if people do it in their 20s anymore but I still do I went to Noah KH the other day with my sister I didn't take that [ __ ] off for another week cuz I was I had such a good time talking of Noah Khan this this does not make me very demor or very cutesy or very mindful not very mindful at all I went to go see Noah Khan the other day and I was standing and I had to stand at the back because an anxiety okay so I was like okay I will be fine just watching it where I am I can't really see him but I can see him on the big screen so that's all good we get about halfway through the show and these security people in the O2 there's people who are dressed in Orange this means normally they are the people below the top security where they'll just Chuck you out if you're having a fight or if you're too drunk and we call that ejections so people will eject you if you are causing issues basically anyway so they're like move move move they're separ the crowd and I'm like right at the front of the separation so I'm just assuming like who are they objecting why is someone getting drunk you know this isn't the type of music concert for someone to get drunk anyway so I asked the guy and I was like who are you objecting he's like no one the artist is coming through I was like sorry sorry you're you're having me on I was like I'll bet you a f he's not coming he's not coming through here I was like all right but then after a while I started to realize this guy doesn't have any reason to lie to me the music fades the lights go off who comes walking past me Noah KH 2 feet away I was like what the hell the the you know what I wasn't I wasn't me being Star Struck isn't very cutesy isn't very mindful isn't very demure and I don't normally get Star Struck but I think it was the more of a shock of like I could have chosen to stand anywhere in this Arena I chose this specific place where he specifically walked through and he looked at me I have it on video also so this is very cuty and very demure and very mindful of Me Maybe not so mindful but I brought one of those disposable cameras with me I was like oh my God this is the perfect time when he walks back on stage he will walk past me so I can get a photo I'm going to develop it over the weekend and look out for on my socials because I hope it comes out okay I only had one shot but I think it turned out good but I did Flash in his face which doesn't make me very mindful but it does make me demor very cutesy because I've like I've got my disposable camera I'm not like all the other girls you know so that was really cool that was a really cool experience it just made the concert 10 times better I love when artists come in the crowd it just it just makes it more worth it because you know it's not like totally fair for the people at the back that can't really see it and have anxiety um but yeah I always need to have my exit route I always need to have my exit strategy which probably doesn't make me very demure but we'll see anyway I feel Dream Guest On My Podcast like the whole demure trend is just like I don't know I kind of find it cringey when British people say the word demure and you know I'm such a hypocrite because I'm saying it but it just doesn't hit the same as an American saying it I don't know how else to describe it but nevertheless I do find it cringy however I find a lot of things cringey including myself I do feel like the best way to live is to live very unapologetically cringey because I think you just have a much more fun life I'll get moments where I'm like oh that was cringey Corey but like at the same time who actually gives a [ __ ] cuz someone asked me like who would be your dream guest on the podcast who would be your dream guest on the podcast mine would be Jake Shane honestly I need you on the podcast dead ass this guy is genuinely my bestie and he doesn't even know it like that sounds really crazy to say but I can be on the verge of tears I will be on the verge of having a panic attack and I'll be like you know what I'm going to scroll through Jake Shane's Tik Tok and he genuinely heals me I I see a bit of me and him some weird way I need to see inside this guy's brain because I'll be the same probably I just love how he randomly pops up like the other day he was at Tate McCrae concert with I love Tate t-shirt on I was like this is just so iconic Jake is always doing side Being In Your Masculine quests I'm literally just a girl like I'm literally just a girl sometimes I just think people will give me [ __ ] and it will make me want to cry and I'll just be like I'm just a girl leave me alone leave me alone the other day right these environmental police people they're not really police I don't really know what they are you they can't really do anything anyway there's a big thing about not having dogs on lead around my area which they're like finding everyone and I don't have that kind of money okay but my dog pickle She's this small and she's just broken her leg so she can't wear a lead um and she's harmless as well by the way so a lot of the time they're okay with it but this one time the other day they weren't okay with it and this guy ended up following literally following me to my front door and I started screaming like stop following me stop following me that doesn't make me very cutesy very mindful very demure but I can't even lie any man that starts following me I don't care who you are if you're following me like literally chasing me to my front door I'm going to start screaming I'm going to be ready to punch you in the face I've never punched anyone before but I'm ready to punch someone if that actually comes to it I've got to protect myself I don't care who you are if you're that's just so unprofessional I obviously explained to him like the situation and then I walked away cuz I was like I don't owe you anything you're not police like you can't do anything cuz you know my situation like I don't even care I if I have to cause a scene I have to cause the scene doesn't make me very cute see mindful or demor I don't care I felt very intimidated I felt like my life was on the line call me over dramatic I had my dog in my hands when they came up to me I literally had her in my arms which is the most crazy part because they're actually fine if you pick the dog up which I did so I don't see the issue I'm not incriminating Myself by saying that because I was absolutely fine they just needed they were just bored I think a lot of people get bored in that job and they have some kind of superity complex how the hell do you say that word superity CL complex complex clumpy there's just so many things I can list that don't make me very cutesy I feel like I'm quite a mindful person I'm very mindful of people's feelings but when it comes to everything else like I'm not either either of that so I don't really like the trend um and I'm not trying to be a Pik me it just is the way I am hate it or love it love it or leave it I don't know anyway I'm going to go now because I need to edit and upload this it's a Sunday I did miss the Wednesday this week because I've just been so busy but we're getting guests on very very very very soon so do look out for that I'm so excited 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