I Made Out With My Boyfriend's Mistress | Call Her Daddy & Maria Georgas Full Interview

Bria Georges welcome to callor Daddy I am so excited to be here I love you so okay I love you I love you I'm so excited I I can't believe we're finally doing this first of all this has been a long time coming which we will tell the daddy gang all about but the entire world fell in love with you when you went on the season of The Bachelor and ever since it ended I feel like everyone has quite literally just been waiting patiently for you to speak and you are finally here yes so I definitely needed the time to just be on my own but if I was going to speak I was going to speak here with you today on color Daddy and I it was a long time coming but I'm here now and I'm ready okay I have so many questions so let's just get into it okay before you continue this is really tight and I want to slip into something a little bit more comfortable okay be right back oh my God excuse me okay okay she's got her little unwell outfit on oh I'm feeling so myself right now you have no idea wait really oh my God this is me to my core okay but every single outfit you slayed the season like for anyone that didn't watch this season Maria on The Bachelor I don't know if I've ever seen someone come with like such good outfits and I feel like I saw that all online how did you even pack for this [ __ ] season oh my God it was so last minute you guys have no idea so I I always wanted to be on the show I had dreams about it I was like I'm going to be on the show one day so I remember like I would always buy things in hopes I swear to God I'm not even kidding and so when I actually got like I was like fully in the running they're like okay you're like in it um but I was never getting a solid yes I was like waiting waiting waiting 3 days prior they're like pack your bags you're coming you need this this and this I'm like holy [ __ ] I had three days to pack why did you always want to be on The Bachelor I love the show I love the show I was such a huge fan and um I had friends on the show and they had did yeah wait I feel like that's T well I mean I don't know how much I want to say I feel like there's been you know people have talked about it and I'm sure people know who but yeah I've had people that have been on the show that I've always said like I see you on it and yeah and so I was like I'm going to apply so you ROM man are you inating you've like romantically dabbled with people on the show I wouldn't say romantic but obviously there was like um I don't know what you want to call it whatever you want to call it it was just like a good thing going and yeah and I just remember talking to him about it and he was like I can totally see you know what he said to me actually should I be asking you like who you're talking about no we shouldn't do you want me to say it I think I have to ask well I mean I think it's been fairly obvious and I honestly I'm so over the rumors and stuff like that so Nick obvious oh [ __ ] but is this bad cuz he's like totally married no I think that's it's not you're saying you're like in love with this person yeah nothing has ever happened between Nick and I but like it's always been like a friendship okay but but this no no I think this is fine to say Nick is one of the biggest people from the franchise and the fact that like you had like a little thing with him back in the day but you never hooked up no you just had like a flirtatious banter literally that is all like he helped me through breakups like he was a good friend to me at points and it was great but I remember and I and I never really understood it until actually being on the show he had said to me he's like I can see you being the villain he's like you're going to go on you're going to be the villain and I I was like why why me like I would never go with the intention of becoming a villain I didn't go in there try to piss people off but I remember him saying he's like people are going to come after you no matter what I can just see it you're going to be the villain and it was just funny because after I finished filming there was rumors about me being a villain I'm like but I wasn't I know what happened well I feel like just to sum it up again for anyone that didn't watch like I feel like people tried really really really really really really [ __ ] hard to make you the villain and then everyone in America watching it was like no like no she's not the villain actually like these girls that are basically gaslighting Maria are the villain okay let's go back to the beginning I love how you were just like dropping bombs left and right okay but I think the I think it's fine to say the Nick vile thing I think he's like happily married now and that's great yeah and I think and I just want everyone to know that like there's no animosity between between us like I think we have always been friends obviously whatever but um yeah he's always been great to me and like I respect his relationship I respect where he is is now I'm happy to see him grow um but yeah to say that we didn't have a past that would be a lie so like I just hate this like it's been all over Reddit I'm just want people to know that like it's nothing serious but also we've respected each other along the way and I'm happy where he's at now I I congratulate him well I was going to say I also think the internet is too smart nowadays where it's like if you were connected to anyone in Bachelor Nation as they say secret exactly so I think it'd be like you'd be like remiss to not bring it up because then everyone would be like you're a liar right and I have nothing to hide like I go through life where I feel like I have you want to ask me questions I want to answer no no really can you tell I can tell yeah so I'm like you know what like at the end of the day I'm like I rather speak on it then people build or create stories out of nothing there's nothing to talk about there amazing literally so let's talk about your season you are one of the most popular I would say Bachelor contestants in the history of ever and you just like brought this energy to it this relatability you were normal I think people could be like see themselves being friends with you you're a girls girl like it was great Vibes how did you feel about all this attention oh my God first of all thank you for saying that like that mental a lot because I was actually talking this talking about this with my friends like when I had first come back home I had to sit my family down to let them know like what what kind of like [ __ ] stupidity I went through in the house I did not know how it was going to like play out and like how people were going to perceive me because in the house I felt like I was so wrongfully um accused of things and people were just like taking me the wrong way and so I didn't know how things were going to play out the fact that it was an honest edit I can say and like showed exactly who I am and I said to myself I'm like if I'm going to do this I'm going to do this like exactly who I am I'm not going on there with some alra ego like no no no I'm going to when my friends and family are going to watch they're going to be like that's my Maria prior to this show yeah were you someone who was used to a lot of drama in your life the and I talked about this on the show to Joey I was like the last thing I thought I was going to have problems with were the girls I thought I was going to be like the I thought the only problem I would have is if I like him or not or if we can really see each other like becoming something right and so when that was my biggest concern in the house I was like oh my God I maybe that guy was right maybe maybe it's like in in way okay you want to hear something I actually actually have something to say yes this is actually kind of [ __ ] up okay so Sydney you know Sydney no so in the house oh the one that was the to so funny enough no actually side note I don't know if you want to keep this in but this is actually kind kind of like concerned me at one point so when it first started like airing I remember someone sent me a photo of Nick and Sydney together they were all friends because Sydney's friends with um Ashley I and Nick's close with Ashley and Ashley's close with Sydney and they were all in a photo together I'm like was this all planned no I'm not kidding besides all this right now I'm like straight shooter to you right now part of me was like was this all planned because I was like I did I knew I was innocent like I knew I was innocent hand to God so when this all started happening and then imagine dealing with that in the house and then coming out and seeing that she's friends with Nick I was like right because Nick had told you there was something conspiring here okay so walk someone through that maybe didn't watch the show you're basically saying you're seeing Nick F like tell you you're going to potentially be the villain then you're seeing Nick bile be friends with the girl that attacked you the whole season okay keep this [ __ ] in because you know what I'm not kidding I was this is my exact thought process I was like there's something weird about all this because it was too close to this like it was too close to home I was like this what was said and now this and this cuz if there was a if guys if there was a moment in the house where I can say okay I deserve that I would say I would not even begin to think about this but I was so innocent to someone that has no idea what the [ __ ] we're talking about and has not watched of theor you had these two specific women I would say three three okay three women that were like hellbent on crucifying you oh yeah can you give like a brief synopsis of like what they were trying to like basically kill you for yeah so um there's a point in time where we see Medina she was one of the older girls I don't even like to say older here we go the age thing but she she had mentioned that she felt insecure about her Ag and um that she was losing time and she thought you know it was Joey maybe might have not been giving her enough attention because of her age okay um and I stayed silent during that conversation she kind of like addressed the room about it and then why did I say and L I don't know um so then we were outside and kind of we had breaks you know throughout the day but we're always being recorded and I knew that so despite having a break I know like we're being recorded but again I was in the moment with my friend and we were kind of like um going through what was like said or during that moment we were kind of just like what's the word re we're just like recapping what recapping thank you very much that moment and all I said to her was like I don't get why Medina would say that because like I'm in her age group and I'm just saying like she's she's a beautiful woman like literally so beautiful where I was like I couldn't even fathom the idea that she was thinking that it had something to do with her age why Joey's not giving her attention I'm like you're so beautiful own it like you have so much going for you you have the age is the last thing you should worry about but I wasn't saying that to Medina I was saying that to my friend as we were recapping the night um and that's why I was like I want to preface by saying like if Medina had come to me and said to me Maria I feel insecure my age I know you're like one of the older girls in the house too like this is how I feel I would never say on it you're hot like I would be like no let's talk about it if this is how you feel I'm here for you you know so obviously I was saying what I was saying to my friend behind closed doors and I was being overheard by Sydney and in instead of a coming up to me to be like hey are you talking about Medina cuz she's my girl instead of like either coming up to me or talking to me one-on-one to be like hey I might have heard this but I don't know it she started this entire thing on something she might have heard so that's where it all kind of started though and I think like what we can acknowledge for women is like age is such a sensitive thing just because everyone makes us feel like when you hit 30 it's like ooh the the clock is ticking and so I empathize with what she was saying and then I also agree with what you were saying of like oh my God girl like don't even [ __ ] worry you're hot you're beautiful you're young like 30 is Young yeah 31 is Young 32 40 is Young like we have to like retrain our brains to look at like women and age in a complete different way but I think on the show it brought up a really interesting conversation that you were almost villainized for like [ __ ] on this woman for her age and that was not what you were saying absolutely and like everything you said was absolutely right and for me I'm like I can get insecure about my age too 100% And I have felt insecure about it but going into the bachelor knowing that there's that you know sometimes they cast 23 year olds and stuff like that I knew going into it where I was like I probably am going to be the oldest one in the house so I was trying to think POS positively so that like I didn't get into that mindset so I thought in ways like I was trying in in ways when I was talking to my friend about it I was trying to encourage myself too cuz like hearing her talk about that you don't think that struck a cord with me I was like [ __ ] maybe like like cuz I am a year older than him maybe that is weird I don't know I started like thinking I was like no no no like we're going to twist it no we're hot we're confident let's do this like and I was just having a talk with my girlfriend I didn't think it was going to become a thing I I wasn't trying to do this in front of a room like I would have been way more sensitive way more like you know yeah you were almost like debriefing something that clearly related to cuz how old is she she's 31 okay she's 31 and how old are you 29 okay I'm 29 yeah same age so I get what you're saying is like you guys are the oldest in the house and you immediately saw her freaking out and getting insecure that you were like oh my God like should I be insecure no we're [ __ ] beautiful let's go let's just turn this into a positive right now because it's so you know in the house you're so isolated and you I can see why she was feeling those things but I I kind of wanted to like cuz imagine if I just sat there and was like yeah we are we should just like peace out right now as old [ __ ] like let's let's just get the [ __ ] out of here mail it in was trying to just like and again if she had come to me personally the conversation would have been different it was just in the moment with my friend I was just like yeah and so this kind of begins this feud between you and this girl Sydney where she like has it out for you she's literally saying you're like the devil oh yeah it was funny I brought devil ears cuz I knew we were going to be filming during Halloween and I wore the devil ears like for a week straight they cut that out so maybe we don't talk about that but like I loved it I was like cuz they told me they're like yeah you know sees you as a devil I'm like amazing and in Parts I was like wait but what like I was questioning myself why do you think this girl had it out for you like you said you barely got into drama your whole life with women like your biggest concern was like am I going to even like Joey like why even get along with him what do you think if you had to pinpoint it brought it on this season yeah so I H cuz now getting to know her outside of this she's an amazing woman and I and I honestly can say that in that moment she really truly thought she was going to bat for her friend um and like again it's so weird to say like these girls become our best friends but when you're in that environment you become very close to people and that's how it feels right so I truly think that she was feeling she was going to B for her friend she was that ride or die friend she wasn't going to like let anything slide um with the best intentions just wrongly guided I don't really know why because I guys when I tell tell you you know she had apologized to me there and then when we I was like listen you overheard something you took it out of context it wasn't meant maliciously um next time you know come to me she's like absolutely we cheers the next day we had that group date where we were um doing the talent show and she hugged me before the group date and she was like Maria I just want to say again I'm sorry for taking something out of context it wasn't shown we never even got to talk about this and so I thought I was like wow okay you know what and I said to her that day I go listen I'm good to hug you hug it out and like we're good but just you scare me a little bit because we were so good up until the point where you're starting [ __ ] with me where I'm like where is this coming from so we hugged it out we were good later on that night is when she was like I feel bullied by you you hugged me earlier that day it was like guys when I say it was crazy it was crazy but again because I know she is a good person deep down I think that again in this environment it just brought out the worst well because I was gonna say like I I didn't know you guys were close now which is we're close but we're good you're good yeah okay cuz I was going to say I thought I didn't know if you guys were like friends and I'm like that's kind of crazy to go from someone being like you're bullying me like the what we watched on TV I was like this girl is like losing her mind on national TV and it's like everywhere you would go she would turn to you and just start like going after you and it felt very targeted yeah it got to points where she would acknowledge that like I can't even be in a room with Maria cuz I feel she's going to attack me and there's been so many scenes of us in a room and I'm like leave me alone what so like I didn't understand I and to this day like you know her and I didn't get to really talk about what exactly it was that made her say those things about me cuz I could like even thinking about putting myself in her head I could never say that about someone if I knew that it was so untrue well I think it was in too and I liked reading the internet during your season because I thought that women had really interesting takes about you like I remember watching in so many women we're like I feel like half of these girls in the house are having their first Buy experience because everyone is falling in love with Maria and everyone's like do I like her more than Joey I think there was also a lot of jealousy like you exude confidence you like walked in every room you looked so [ __ ] hot you looked insane in your outfits you have a great personality and you just LED with confidence and I think in those environments I can imagine if women are seeing one woman lead with just like no doubts or fears you're going to be like [ __ ] you I wish I was like that and I personally felt like a lot of it was driven by jealousy which sucks but I think is sadly relatable if you could go back is there anything you would have handled differently in all the drama well I just want to say something first so before going into the house I had read something and it was like some book and it was called you're just not that you're there's what was it was like you're not that great or something like that and then just like no no but wait what a great book no no but you know what the the the the the meaning behind it meant something to me and it was just like acknowledging the fact that you're not that great and like I never no wait just wait I don't ever think of myself as like like when you say like like it's weird to me even believing when someone's like oh someone's jealous of you like I don't look at things like that like I went into this bachelor World being like I'm not going to be the prettiest girl in the room I'm not going to be the best dress I'm not going to be the most like exciting to look at or be with like I just said I'm going to be myself and if it works it works like I was so self-aware going into it so it's funny that like people see it as like confidence and people see it as like oh girls are jealous of you it's like I genuinely went in there being like I'm going to be supportive of everyone around but I'm not also not going to think I'm that great like I I now love this now I love this message at first I was where we going I [ __ ] suck I'm a piece of [ __ ] but like just acknowledging that like you know like just knowing who you are like I'm not I'm not overly confident in that way where I'm like I'm the [ __ ] I've never thought that way about myself um I thought all the women were especially night1 going into that house I was like there are so many beautiful women around me that I was like I'm just going to be myself have fun and then if it works it works and it did and like so when girls came after me and being like oh she like people are seeing it as like like oh you were so confident and that's why I'm like oh my God I was like I ne never once I think I was the prettiest in the room never once that I think I was the best dress that's why after it aired and hearing that like everyone loved my outfits and like everyone thought I was so com I was like damn I love everything you just said and I truly believe though that's where it is confidence what you're talking about and it's I think it's enviable and I think if anyone takes anything from this episode it's that it's like you deciding I can't be what I'm not I'm going to be myself I I'm me I look how I look I act how I act and like I'm going to present as I am and if he likes it and they like it great if not who gives a [ __ ] first I do want to talk a little bit about your personal life because I think you you came into this bachelor world and everyone was like who is this firecracker like who is this girl and where did she came from who is Maria yeah have you ever been in love before I've obviously okay okay I had a couple boyfriends I'm gonna say two two boyfriend I like I'm going to tell you exactly the number yeah I I don't have that much experience um I always like when I'm with someone I feel loving feelings but like to like when you're out of it you kind of think back and you're like wait was I even in love I don't know I don't think so um because I want to believe when I am I know it's going to be my person kind of thing I had loving feelings for everyone that I've ever been with yep yeah I think that makes a lot L of sense I think that no I think I think that answers it I think you would know if you had been in love right you would think you would know trust me that's what I'm thinking you would know okay what has been your longest relationship oh [ __ ] you're going to call me right out um literally my my first boyfriend was like eight months but I lived with him for three so it felt like a [ __ ] Century but um what okay maybe no I don't know dead okay listen I have never had anything long term I'm an I'm problem no I'm the problem wait you Liv with him for 3 months towards the end of the eight months and then is that what ended it the beginning you wait hold on wait wa hold on hold on hold on you it's been so long ago it was like seven years ago [ __ ] you dated a guy for8 months you lived with him for three but how did you start living together then stay together but not live together walk me through this okay hold on let me think it was so long ago guys it was like seven years ago um we dated and hit it off right away and he was living alone I was living with my family and he was like I want to be with you all the time so come sleep at my house and then it turned into me ended up moving like ending up moving in with him does that make sense and then how did you move out um he cheated on me wait and then you wa wait [ __ ] what do you think he [ __ ] chea on me wait but maybe this make sense 8 months dating first three months you're living together he then cheats you stay no no no no cheating happens towards the end honey okay okay so then why did you move out it was just because he cheated on me okay okay you got your timeline mixed up you said you lived together in the first three months uhhuh okay wait maybe I'm confused is not M let me let me let me backtrack eight months together eight months together living with him okay so not I didn't live with him right away you're right okay you I know more about your life than you know about your okay so he cheats how did you find out he cheated oh [ __ ] no tell me everything my God I I'm a Virgo do you know what viros are like no tell me more I'm an FBI agent oh like without being an FBI FBI agent yeah um so basically so because I was living with him right um at the time anyways so um he was in New York with his family I'll never forget this this is actually kind of [ __ ] up but it's okay you know what him and I we laugh about this cuz he found he he's like I hope you know I know I knew what you did the entire time we talked about it listen it's better to just laugh it off now but it wasn't a laughing moment at the time but we can laugh about it now anyway so he was in New York with his dad and then um he was like yeah so I was staying at his place stupid idiot anyways so I'm with I have all my friends over and I remember I was in LA and then Vegas for a wedding I did like a week trip and he was so oh my God Nick plays into this because he hated Nick and Nick hated hated him [ __ ] that guy though know because he cheated on me but it's fine um so okay let me get back on track hold on okay so I um so I had gone on that trip and he was already questioning me being on that trip being like you're going there to see him blah blah blah blah I'm like [ __ ] I'm going to a [ __ ] wedding like what is your issue and we're spending a couple more nights in La after after Vegas I lied we went to Vegas first and then we did the wedding in La okay there it is it's come on seven years I haven't talked about this [ __ ] in ever um and so he was already upset with the whole trip I get back we're good he goes to New York I stay at his place and I invite my friends over I had this weird feeling cuz the last couple nights in La he was kind of like quiet like wasn't really speaking to me I'm like bit you're my boyfriend where the where the [ __ ] anyways no not like that I'm very sweet I'm but I get what you're saying when a boyfriend is quiet you know what the you're checking in on me and then all of a sudden you're quiet for the next couple days what's going on what the hell's going on so I remember being like okay so I I know I kept that in my notes I was like okay so this time this time he was kind of weird sketch so I get to his place I'm staying he leaves I go to the front desk this is actually kind of smart girls pay attention so I go to the front desk I'm like oh my God I left for my trip but I as I was waiting for my Uber um or whatever I was waiting I don't know what I said I'm like I left my purse on the couch so right outside of his place there's a like a communal area and there was a couch and I was like I left my purse there and I can't find my purse I'm like I need you to like I was sitting here between this time and this time and I told him the times where I felt like he was being off so he so the poor front desk man and by the way man I never outed you even though when you knew I knew what he knew what I was doing in that I'll explain but I never outed him never to my ex but now I'm outing you but it's okay you're probably not even working there anymore um so so I I told him I'm like from this time to this time I remember I was sitting there blah blah I don't know where this purse went and it's like expensive purse I need to know where it is so he's go he turns the the [ __ ] screen to me and he's going through the times and I and I told he's so he's a little it's fine I told him between I think I said from 11:00 p.m. till 3:00 a.m. I'm like I don't know if you have to check to see if my purse was there and if someone took it so he's showing me okay and I had my girlfriend there I'll never forget cuz she [ __ ] screwed it up I was like game face I was like show me the [ __ ] cameras so I was looking for my purse all of a sudden guys I I kid you not 3:20 I remember the time 3 it was like something 3:00 a.m. 3:20 don't to say that I remember the time that's kind of weird but it's fine um a [ __ ] [ __ ] shows up to his door no 3 something a.m. and then I'm going like this this this is me I'm like this I keep my mouth shut my friend goes and then he so now the front Des guy sees that there's another girl that ain't me showing up at this time and then as soon as she [ __ ] gasp like outing me he turns the camera he's like I I can't be doing this I I'm sorry I I I I was like I was like no no no no don't don't worry and he in that moment knew that I that he knew that what I was trying to do and and he knew that now he outed my boyfriend for having a girl show up at his place at 3:00 a.m. while I was gone but in that moment I went no no [ __ ] way and so it gets worse so I kept my mouth shut you didn't say anything no of course I the poor front desk man I no I I never outed him to until this day I'm so sorry sir but um till this day never outed him never outed him I go back in I you know actually it's kind of funny I went for a walk I played some music I pretend I was like in a music video like sad cried I don't know I don't know what I did I did some like weird [ __ ] but then I went back and then so days later he comes back we're good he throws a party okay okay guys listen to this it gets [ __ ] so he throws a party oh my God poor guy he's probably like going to watch us and be like listen at the end of day don't cheat on your girlfriend cuz one day she's going to live to tell the tale she's going to live to tell the [ __ ] tale so don't cheat on your girlfriend um anyways so he throws a party family friends and remember I saw that [ __ ] I saw her oh you're going to you're going to wait for the twist at the end so I saw her so I I I knew how she looked he throws a party fans family and friends at his restaurant he's thr in a restaurant oops cut that out because I'll be very obvious okay who let's be real I only had one [ __ ] X and everyone knows it's fine but cut it out maybe I don't know keep it in do whatever you want um so so he throws a party family and friends there's a separate table of like randoms that I don't know who shows up she does but I keep keep myself I keep my mouth shut I see him go over to her hug her kiss her so I go perfect that's my in so he comes back I'm like who who's that girl that you kiss on the cheek like like who's that like oh she's just a friend like D I was just saying hi I'm like okay that was a little like it's a little much to say hi to a friend right so I'm watching her watching her so later on that night I was like [ __ ] it I'm done I'm done I'm so out like the fact that he's now bringing this girl around me that's the most [ __ ] up part wait and how long had you waited to like how long is this between you a week you saw the video it wasn't long I just didn't know how I was going to like like do it but I was out at that but that's like that's mentally [ __ ] to put your [ __ ] mistress in the same room with your girl I actually have more tea my God it just keeps flowing oh [ __ ] so basically cuz when he was showing me the cameras I saw a bunch of guys go in first all his friends and then she showed up like hours later at like 300 a.m. but they were like I didn't see the friends leave so I was in my head I was like okay maybe this might not be what I think it is and like he's already thinking I'm seeing Nick and so there was so many things where I was like okay I can't overthink because if you're looking at it just based on like what you like how it looks I want to know proof but anyways but cut that out no make him look bad it's fine no no but I get but okay but I was in my head I was kind of like [ __ ] maybe maybe not you're rationalizing which I get you were telling him I'm not cheating on you with Nick I'm not seeing Nick I'm literally going to a wedding but he's like I know you have a past with him blah blah blah then he starts acting sketchy and in your mind you're like is he making this decision because he thinks I was being shady with Nick when I wasn't and then all of a sudden you see her at 3:00 a.m. and then your brain rationalizes even though you God didn't know well what he was doing girl showing up at 3M by herself she's there for the after party oh you know what the after party was okay yeah his peeee his peee and her [ __ ] punani yeah 100% anyway so I saw her there and I again I didn't say anything whatever and then we got back to the house and I'm like who's that girl and he he would just kep being like she was a friend she's a friend I'm like so then why and I and I laid it all out there I was like why did she show up at your house at this time this date in a red dress I was like saying it all and he to this day to this day we say nothing ever happened but want to hear some funny [ __ ] please so as a Virgo right we're very thorough so I need to get to the nitty-gritty I need to know I was never going to get my answer from him you know so I okay so I I dance okay I take heel classes and I do all that so I met a girlfriend there and she was going out one night and she texts me she like come meet me I go who you up with she sends me a photo she's with that girl no so I go perfect oh just wait so I'm like perfect I'm going to meet this girl but again I wasn't going to go meet her with the intentions to be confrontational I was just going to see who this girl is I want to meet you I want to look you dead in the eyes you know me I don't know you you don't know that I know you but I know you anyways we hit it off love her a love her sweetest [ __ ] girl ever so nice that makes it so much worse like [ __ ] yeah she was great and did she know you were dating him well I mean do you have an Instagram it was very fairly obvious like there was no excuse as on her end but at the end of the day I'll never blame the girl ever he owed something to me and you never know what they say in the moment like oh we're on a break oh she you know I mean oh to this day I am not upset with her oh actually I'm great friends with her oh but do you know what I mean like I always think about like when women are like oh my God my husband cheated and [ __ ] this woman and I'm like I swear to God when man takes off his pants and he's hard and he's staring at a woman and the woman's like wait don't you have a wife or don't you have a girlfriend they're like she just got run over by a bus she's dead she We buried her last week she beats where she beats me it's the whole thing they will say whatever they when they look down and they look up they're like whatever I can do to get inside y absolutely so we can't blame the women y yeah okay so you're not dancing so we're we're friends we become friends at night and then to the point where like we're like hanging out and we're us through hanging out to the point where I even okay this is actually psychotic yeah go ahead go ahead it's call her daddy nothing is that crazy okay so I I one night we were all out and I was a little drunk and I'm like I need to see if this girl is a go kiss her only cuz I was like I want to see s I'm obsessed with you I was like no I want to know what the [ __ ] she has that I don't that like this all happen so I made out with her one night but to this day like we were totally it was all jokes whatever it's fine I love women I love men I love men more but it's fine it's fine I just did it for my own sanity I again viros were [ __ ] like you wanted to understand what you were missing right I wanted to know what he was dealing with if if I had anything like I don't know I don't know what the hell I just did it cuz I need to do it she knows all this now okay okay so then so then so we became friends like really good friends like we're all good whatever and one night she calls me okay guys listen to this and mind you I had broken up with him I said what I said to him he denied it he doesn't know now that I'm like having a friendship with this girl okay she calls me she's like Maria I need to see you I'm like yeah come over she comes over she starts to cry she's like I have to be honest about something she's like Maria I love you like you're such a good person like I just like I feel like I need to be honest about something I go let me stop you right there I knew this entire time it was like a whole like this could be a movie this could be a movie and this could be the whole episode oh my God I know right anyways no just long long story short I just basically said to her I'm like listen like I met you with intention to see who you were as a person I loved you that night you were so fun so sweet like at the end of the day I didn't hold anything against you because my ex he was supposed to respect me and like not do that [ __ ] to me oh back to Joey back to Joey Joey The Bachelor yeah so you had never brought a guy home in your life is this real that became okay here's the thing I think we it's like the semantics of it it's like yes have men met my dad and like my like my parents yes like my ex met my parents but have I ever brought them into my home where my like my family met like no yeah but like have they met my parents and the people that matter yeah sure did I introduce to my brothers no like like the entire family no but my parents yes and like my friends absolutely always but like the idea of just like it was just just yeah I didn't bring them home but it doesn't mean that they weren't like yeah acquainted with my parents and like people that matter to me it just like it was the idea of just like it's the first guy that I'm going to introduce to everyone all at once got it does that make sense yes completely okay do you think you and Joey would have actually made it in the real world um it would have been great as friends like we were so um like funny together where we like like the same movies like have the same banter but and we obviously like to like we liked each other but I don't I you know what I don't know I don't know I think him and Kelsey make such a good match because he was always one to always kind of need reassurance does that mean to say it's not mean to say because that's what he was very um vocal about on the season and I think that like Kelsey's the kind of woman that gives it to him but like also is very confident and gets it too from him like I don't know they work so perfectly together I don't know how to explain it but um I've never seen two people so into each other it just worked I don't know if I could have given him what exactly what he wanted all the time and so um I don't know but I I think that we were great friends yeah what's something that a guy could do that would immediately give you the ick o dance oh [ __ ] I don't no here's the thing I don't mind okay you know you know have you ever seen those guys who like start breaking out into dance but they're so bad but they think they're so good when are they breaking out into dance like give me go that's the problem they do no wait like where [ __ ] anywhere there's a [ __ ] tune I don't know here's the thing here's the thing like but here's the thing this is where where the difference lies like when they're dancing but being silly and like just owning that they're bad but there's some that are so bad but they think they're good that's where I get the ick the full ick that's where I'm like oh my God M you're not it no that's that makes sense what's the craziest thing an X has ever done to you date 32 women at the same time sorry Bachelor wait I saw you oh my God I didn't I didn't catch that at first I was like yeah this happened more than once in my life no just the bachelor [ __ ] I literally did okay oh my God yeah can we talk about that how did you deal with the jealousy okay so here's the thing and I'm going to be very very honest with you in that moment oh [ __ ] should I say it mm should I say it mhm you should always say whatever comes to your brain sweetie I'm on a roll tonight um it's 1:00 in the afternoon I'm going to be honest about something I know tonight whatever today so I'm going to be honest about something so Jen and I okay Jen and I so Jen kissed him on the group date okay I went up to her because I just like you know when you're very self-aware like you know your place and things and I just knew Joey and I were never going to be endgame yes could I have made it further sure 100% like we had that connection I just didn't think I was going to be endgame and he was going to be endgame for me and so so I told Jen that day that I was going to use that as an excuse to leave Joey use what that she kissed him that's [ __ ] bad that's this is T this is T [ __ ] wait walk me through what you're talking about so there's a scene where um Jen kisses Joey and that's where I'm like Jen kisses Joey I am disgusted um but I I you know I was very close to her and I just felt like I needed a way out and it wasn't it had nothing to do with in Joey is great like Joey is actually such a catch and that's why I'm so happy like I think finding happiness was like knowing that he's happy with someone that loves him so much and that I was I'm so happy for him I just knew it was never going to be me and so I was like I need a way out and so I used Jen kissing him in that moment that pissed me off as an excuse to leave okay can I say what I'm getting from that as I think that now with reality television there's in a beautiful way there's so much more that people understand yeah that these environments are so [ __ ] heightened and there's you're in this bubble and you are feeling feelings that maybe you wouldn't feel on the outside world or maybe you are feeling feelings but they're heightened because of and so I can imagine that the moment you started to realize like maybe I'm actually not endgame and maybe we're better as friends and maybe there's still doubts in your head if you're right or wrong then you see him the next day and you're like oh but he's so cute and like and then there's also and when he fights for you to stay you're kind of like okay [ __ ] maybe I'm like misguided I am I need to be in this and that's kind of how I felt during hometowns I was like he fought for me so hard whether they showed the entirety of that and that's fair but in that moment he did fight for me to stay and so when I came to hometowns I'm like okay I'm dropping my walls I'm giving this my all but like that moment in Jasper when I was trying to leave it was it was a little bit of a I was just trying to give him a way out cuz I'm going to be honest now that you're saying it it makes more sense because again to context if people didn't watch that episode you're sitting on the couch with him you're basically saying like I can't do this anymore I am jealous I'm seeing you kiss other women like I can't handle it I knew what I signed up for yes yeah and I think you could tell though there was something else going on cuz you were being kind of sporadic of like you're walking back and forth you like I can't do this Joey and you can tell tell like that wasn't the real reason and you could tell he was so confused you could tell that speculating and I was like guys but I feel like that's what my job is to do is just like read people sitting across from me and I and you do a really [ __ ] good job thank you but on TV I was immediately like this is not this is not the whole story so you knew kind of in that moment maybe it's time for me to go and then he fought for you which maybe you're saying we didn't see the whole extent to which he fought yeah you you didn't you didn't and then we to hometowns and then that was kind of cuz I was like I don't want to say I was like forced to believe but I I mean you want to believe someone's actions and like how hard he fought for me that night where I was like okay you know what I need to get my head in the game like I do feel good great things about him I think he's great and I am in it but I didn't know where he was at and there was like there was some sort of Disconnect but when he fought for me so hard I was like okay this is like something that could be real and Maria like stop [ __ ] this up and so at hometowns is where I fully dropped my walls and then I got sent home and I was like okay okay this is why I protect myself yeah so I'm like and that's what I've kind of learned like I've become accustomed to like being disappointed by men and this has nothing nothing to do with Joey I don't when I talk like this it has nothing to do with Joey because he was just doing his part in the show and like he had more stronger feelings for other women and that's fine but um I just feel like when I turn to like protecting myself where I'm like almost um self-sabotaging I feel like it's like self- protection got it cuz aside from Joey have you ever been in a situation where you told someone you loved them and they didn't say it back more like they come on strong in the beginning and like they're like all in and I push them away and then when it gets to the point where they're like I can't okay you know you keep pushing me away I'm actually going to go and then when they actually go I'm like wait I didn't mean that I was just joking get your ass over here and they're like M I don't know if I can like they don't believe me anymore and I I but then in the end like I said I something happens where I'm like there's a reason why I was pushing them away in the beginning because I they they do something where I'm like they weren't even I don't know if I even believe them to begin with but there's been times where like they come on strong it's like we're never there at the same time I'll say that I think that's a naturally you will get to a point where I I want to believe that it's going to happen at the same time where I'm not going to do that in the what you're doing Maria is you're testing them to see in your brain you think pushing them away I'll see if they stay if they say but what you're going to eventually stop doing because that's not healthy you'll realize oh you're pushing them away and they're like okay I'll leave like you can only push so much someone away to the point where they're like okay you're and imagine if you just didn't oh I had an epiphany recently I'm not joking like a whole like I'm like a whole different person when now like when I'm going to open up to someone and like I feel it initially and that that initial attraction to me is so hard to come by like I don't just have it for anyone but when I do I'm not playing those games like I've learned now the hard way and so for me I'm so open to just letting myself be happy for the first time where I realized that this is what I want aming yeah so that's what I'm saying like you know [ __ ] has happened in the past but I grow from it every time totally but I will say cuz I want to make sure you know like I'm not judging you like literally until Matt like that is that was my game I would be like oh my God I'm going to make sure he really [ __ ] likes me by giving never go so hard and it definitely does something to your ego you're like oh my God I'm like holy [ __ ] like yeah but it's not it's not good it's and then when they turn around you're like wait get back here what are you doing and it's like [ __ ] you have been literally destroying me for the past couple months I've been trying everything I sent you flowers I'm so sweet I take you to dinners and you give me nothing and now when I leave now you want me [ __ ] you like it's a very immature you know like I I'm done with that song and dance like I'm really over it and so I think it needed to happen for the last time for me to be like okay wake your [ __ ] up because you are capable of so much and like I know what I bring to the to the table and like what I can offer someone so doing that kind of game is just it's not cutting it anymore and I don't I don't even want to do that anymore cuz it it it hurts me to hurt someone else well I think what was positive to see is like I feel like we like watched you grow on The Bachelor oh Absol like when you were like [ __ ] maybe I do have to let my walls down like cuz Joey kept being like do you like me hello and you're like I don't know like we'll see tomorrow and it was like it was so classic what you're describing and I think it's so relatable because I think it's like this want to not be vulnerable and you want to make sure they like you before You're vulnerable with them but for you to actually know if you guys like each other you have to be vulnerable in the [ __ ] first place so you can't be like walls up the whole time and I think that like I mean correct me if I'm wrong like I feel like you left the bachelor in a better position for your love life cuz you're like I what I'm going to move forward and what I'm going to do when I meet someone I'm actually attracted to I'm not going to make them think I hate them I know I know I have to let them know I know 100% And like um being on The Bachelor it showed my friends and family that I am a lot more emotional than they've ever seen me that was the probably the hardest thing watching it back was having my friends and family see how much I cried cuz I don't cry I that's just not my thing I am not that girl and so they couldn't even believe it they're like holy [ __ ] like but it was it was a lot more than just crying over a guy it was like I was being I felt like I was at War at times where it was like just so many things accumulated into one where I was like okay I'm I'm so drained but I did it it opened me up and it want it allowed me to know that it's okay to be vulnerable and to let my feelings out and it's better sooner than later because a guy that likes you and wants something with you should know how you feel because that's the only way your guys are going to move forward and I I totally get it now everything you're saying I think led to this perfect yeah obvious Next Step which is we need to talk about The Bachelorette oh yes because we watch you almost as like your character Arc is like you come in and you're like your walls are up and you're kind of falling for this guy but you don't know if you can because you don't if he likes you and then you let him in and then you get heartbroken but you learn so much and like we're all rooting for you I feel like America was rooting for you and America was absolutely devastated when you were not announced as The Bachelorette yeah um were you offered the role as [Music] Bachelorette were you offered the role as Bachelorette obviously I have been trying my hardest to say silent about this but I think that moving forward and if I'm going to be in this world like I have to be honest especially with the people who have supported me and the answer is yes yeah I was offered the role I mean um it was mine until I said it wasn't and yeah it became very overwhelming to the point where I had to decline so thank you for sharing yeah how far along were you in the process of like becoming The Bachelorette until you pulled out yeah well I to the point where I was doing fittings like it was set in stone um I was in it yeah um again like you know bringing up Jen and all of this like I you know she was one of my closest girls in the house and she was always verbalizing how badly she wanted this and when everyone around me was so supportive of me being in this position and everyone wanted this for me I kind of took a second I'm like why am I not happy why am I not excited about this and it took me like realizing that it's just not my time where I was like I respectfully I need to decline I need to take a step back I was not in the red right right head space for this especially knowing that like because I know the extensive process it was to be on the show right so having a bunch of guys do the exact same thing and they're there for me I didn't want to waste anyone's time um and honestly like yeah it was it was hard for me to kind of jump right back into it honestly I mean I think I can be honest like yeah you were about to come on the show and we were going to announce you as The Bachelorette yeah what like a month ago yep and that I remember I was going to have you on on like a Monday and on like Sunday I get the call like Maria went back to Toronto yeah what were those like next few days like once you turned it down yeah no I um the one thing about having such a great um like production behind you and like my producers were so supportive of me and like just being open and honest of where I was mentally and how I felt about everything you know like everyone was so excited and I know what the season could have been like and it would have been great I just was not ready and you know coming back home I just when I say that I just wanted to come back home back to reality and just take time off from all of this like I meant it and I think people saw that and recognized that I wasn't posting as much and like I was not speaking on things because as much as like I wanted my time off but I also wanted Jen to have her moment and like she is the most perfect Bachelorette in my eyes if like I couldn't think of anyone better to do this and um she was so ready for it and that was enough for me to kind of say yeah this is it's not my time um it was it was a hard time because everyone again everyone was so wanting this for me um but I yeah I just I just needed to be home with my family and friends and take that time off to be honest when you saw how devastated America was like how did it make you feel yeah I mean a part of me obviously was so grateful and like I like when people even come up to me and ask for a photo or talk to me and like love me off I'm like I'm an a you like I don't deserve this I'm just so appreciative of it and like that was one thing that kind of kept me going in this in this process because I was like I want to do this for them you know like I want to do this for the people that love and support me but in my I'm like that's not doing it for the right reasons okay but when you say you it wasn't your time and you weren't ready yeah you're saying you weren't yeah why like I I need to understand a little bit more like why why did you turn it down well okay like I what people saw on the on their screen was only the half of what I kind of went through in the house like yes did I have time off before it aired yes but again everything was so like I was so anxious throughout the whole thing um and I get it it would have been my own show it would have been me kind of having like more control over things but again like it's so isolating being in there and I would have have to give up my phone again my freedom like not my freedom but you know like having to be alone in that and I don't I just wasn't I wasn't comfortable I wasn't just mentally prepared for it I think that's to I appreciate you sharing that because again I think it's like so many of the women from the season would have been amazing Bachelorette Jen though is the perfect pick she's going to be she's going to be great and you would have been great and it would have been completely different seasons but I appreciate you saying and I think I wish I think what you're doing more people should take note of I was like you're not running for the clout and the fame like there was an obvious answer of like you would be on TV for another how many episodes and everyone would see your face and you'd be on posters and billboards and you prioritize it you're like I literally am so [ __ ] anxious and I don't feel good and I'm going to prioritize that over getting my bag to the right 100% 100% like that never interest me interested me to begin with going on the show and I wasn't ready to milk my 15 minutes like I when I like I remember Wells um he was like I don't know he did the bartending on yeah so he went out on a podcast and he was saying that I had all these expectations that I had all these um I don't know whatever the hell requirements and and asks yes and that one was I wanted my phone the entire time and I wanted my friend to be a producer and it's like like I wanted so badly to shut that [ __ ] down but again I just didn't think it was my time and my place but like and he was like oh everyone's going to forget about her and Daisy like like this is the this is going to be their biggest regret forget about me like I am so at the end of the day I have to do what's best for me and if that's what like it's it was so disheartening to hear someone who knows this process knows what they put us through like not what they put us through but like knows like how like intense it is like you have to be fully committed like knows like how mentally draining and like physically draining this could be to like say something like that it's like shut the [ __ ] up literally shut the [ __ ] up like you don't know me you don't know me and like I'm a very respectful person so that that went so against my character and I want so badly to speak on that because it's so not true like everyone knows you get your phone taken away and that's it right um well it's also just like so tacky it's like he's been in this franchise for so long it's like did you ask Maria if that those were her requests did you hear it through the Great Vine because if those weren't your request right like don't speak on [ __ ] that you don't know about and also not to be a dick but seems like I'm sure Wells would have loved to be the bachelor back in that's what I'm saying but that's what I'm saying but here's the thing you know it's it's kind of like contradicting for you to say I'm going to be forgotten because I'm not Bachelor but then where do you stand you were never Bachelor right so are you forgotten why I don't know you so you're forgotten in my head but like no that's kind of mean don't say that I'm sorry Wells come make me a drink babe but um at the end of the day I'm just saying like I would never say that about someone else I support whatever anyone else wants to do if they if it there at the end of the day what I wanted people to understand why I took my break was like they would say okay you know it was fairly obvious everyone wanted me as Bachelorette obviously I was going to be asked I think that was obvious so if I didn't do it there had to be a reason it had to be because of me and because I had to take a step back so for him to say it was because of this and the other thing like Wells Wells that's all I got to say I just didn't like it I was like I like just talk to me and you know what ask me and I would tell you you know this is and that but like I'm not a dis I don't disrespect especially the team that was there for me who was who were leaving their families for me to like be there by my side like I respect them so freaking much and that it broke my heart because I knew how badly everyone again everyone everyone wanted it no I agree with you on the well thing I think it's just like a dumb comment made by someone who like clearly would have he's speaking from what he would have done and we're like we know Wells you would have loved to be Bachelor back in the day but I don't think he thinks he's irrelevant so like why do you have to be irrelevant if you don't take different in different ways like we have other things that we would like to do and if it means me going back to reality going back to my dayto day what does that have to do with you and don't don't talk negative about about it like it's okay this this this I understand I was on a reality show but I it was real life to me too like I if I want to go back home and just go back to me I am able to do that and I wanted to do it and I did it done okay now that we're not going to see you on the show we're not going to get to see you date 32 men no what is going on in your dating life are you single I'm so single okay I'm so single um are we going to see you in Bachelor in Paradise no Paradise no no Paradise okay so how are you approaching your dating life right now um you know I just want to meet someone organically is that the word yeah um um like old school you know I just want someone to like come up to me while I'm grocery shopping or at a bookstore even though I don't read I'll just be there one day like I just want to meet someone the way like I don't know back in the day no social media I know my DMs are open tell me nothing who have you gotten DMS from shut the [ __ ] up shut up shut look at that you I can already tell when you're lying to me your J no one no I swear who's in there you are you Hing me up who's in there do you want to look at my DMs give her my phone have you not gotten a celebrity DM yet from who who who tell me who who has messed you from who's I'm married shut up who who have you gotten DMS from come on um like just Bachelor Nation Oh give us one come on no one the the the golden Bachelorette what I going to say the golden Bachelor I'm like [ __ ] no [ __ ] no the golden Bachelor it's like people who support me they you know what it has always been no none [ __ ] can you hook me up no I compers if you're watching this I saw you at Coachella and I did not like that um but I'm open wait the guy that played dmer yeah he don't say that he was in so many other [ __ ] things Sor you're going to let people know that I'm interested in [ __ ] dmer not dmer are you in like kinky [ __ ] like that in the badro no no no no but I like horror right so he's like the horror icon of Our Generation yeah yeah yeah for sure so hot okay so no guys in your DMs except forag guys in my DMs maybe but I don't want that though you want to meet someone at stage coach this weekend you're dancing in the moonlight postm alone is singing you're like oh and then someone grabs your arm is he going to grab my arm no I leg oh my God wait a second what are you that flexible I could be no I could be guys uh I'm flexible take note are you doing splits on the pee peee I I could be hey why not wait do you back flip on that [ __ ] do you use your dance moves in the bedroom no no just your flexibility just my flexibil yes yeah I can throw my leg behind my head you guys hear that DMS are open I'm joking I don't want [ __ ] DMs I really don't guys I'm not kidding I who would you answer in your DMs except for dmer who else not dmer man Evan Peters sorry EV Peters sorry oh my God okay um who would I I don't know someone who's sweet kind um ready for a relationship no games um I don't know who do you think I should answer I need to think about that I'm trying to think if Matt has any friends so we can keep it in family I like I don't like a guy like I used to think I wanted a guy with like a big big big Personality yeah no but we're going to clash no they need to shut the [ __ ] up but let's be the Stars I learned that soon I was like okay when I started really reading on my Leo chart I was like oh I can't have Leo [ __ ] I'm rising Leo yeah there we go what are you Rising what I think there could be a Virgo in there or I'm just saying that's to make you excited wait so so what's your boyfriend husband he's he's an Aries and it works perfectly it works perfectly because it does Fire and Fire yeah it's great but he's like he's great he's I just run the house and then he's great well he's great cuz he got you because he's like dominant but not in the way that like I actually have the last word but that's what I'm saying what I want I want a man but who lets me have the you're [ __ ] like have your Independence and like don't be terrified of your success and like when you're in a room he's like go to your thing babe yes because they know at the end of the day you're going to make them feel like the biggest man in that [ __ ] room% okay we're going to play a game since you're now dating I'm going to give you a scenario am dating okay well you're dating well you're you're trying to okay I'm going to give you a scenario that could happen on a okay what sorry I'm like I'm not trying that hard okay I'm okay being alone I'm going to give you a scenario okay yeah that could happen on first first couple dates with someone and you're going to tell me what you would do go ahead he subtly flexes how much money he makes oh I pay the bill and leave make it feel low take his balls and come right off take your money and go impress some other [ __ ] okay wait wait wait wait wait what no I love it no I love it this is great is there any scenario where it would be hot if someone's flexing about their money no never absolutely never and and you know what the richest people know not say I know all the richest people but they know they don't flaunt it that way and the people that do don't actually have it I like a guy who's modest modest modest no well not modest is money like I want you to spend money but right no but I mean like I don't need him to talk about it like who are you trying to impress like it's almost like you want to know he's wealthy through what he says of like oh my God like I can't wait to take you to Paris this summer we have to go and you're immediately like huh like what airline are we fing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah you got this like like it's through the contextual Clues you know he's wealthy not by him like on you and you're like you definitely don't have that much if you're talking about how much money you have you don't have that much money I I have no interest in hearing it so 100% okay he texts back way too fast like every single time love oh no yeah I don't play games like that when I see the text I answer no Maria hold on no I'm not kidding answer that text fast or else um no I'm being serious do not wait on it hold on what if it's like literally every single time you press enter he's already typing oh type type Ty why why not he's that eager I mean he's there I mean that to me shows you're not playing games like if you here's the thing but he doesn't have a job like 5 minute pause okay no but here let me say if if you see the text and you answer I like it I don't need like obviously yes the man should have a [ __ ] job and he shouldn't be seeing his phone right away but I mean for the most part like yeah like when you see it I don't I don't find it hot you waiting hours to respond yes we don't need two business days go by and it's like back but if you're busy do your thing okay he's very into sexting um where we at in the relationship couple months so we're dating yeah and if we're exclusive oh I don't know what I'm only going to sex you if we're exclusive okay good to know really weirdly I feel like I look back at the dayses and I'm like I feel like I was sexting when I was like getting towards exclusive oh no I need to be exclusive with you cuz I I I I have fun sex thing you do have fun I felt like it was like exhausting if cuz usually the guys that I talk to aren't from Toronto and so it's long distance so sexing is what keeps Us close a not FaceTime sex oh I mean all the above okay so you you don't mind a little sex yeah but not all the time at don't you want to just like you want it to be like special and sporadic and like keep it exciting but um yeah okay he leaves a toothbrush at your apartment after a few weeks of seeing you but never says anything about it I threw it out what the [ __ ] is this here I wouldn't even notice and throw it out and be like the [ __ ] that's it no no honestly I would be like well first of all why don't you have a place and why aren't I leaving mine at yours and also you know as I find as I'm asking you this question quite strange like how' the toothbrush get there like if I know what the [ __ ] he put in his pocket he's like no no that would be a little weird because probably if you're not like you probably were at dinner or you're at the bar so with this [ __ ] keeping it in the back pocket like poking out the whole time yeah no I would be like a little grossed out I'd be like I don't know if it's never happened but I'll let you know when it does yeah unless he has like veneers and he like is like oh my God my my teeth will stay and if I don't get this white wine off or red wine off them like I don't know TR He travel that's a turnoff he travels with a tooth cuz his veneers no no no his mom's like no I I I that's a no okay so we're not appreciating if a guy leaves a toothbrush you're just you're just talking I don't I don't think I would think too much I I I mean there would need to be a conversation I can't imagine a guy just like slipping it in there um but I I think if he did slip it in there without a conversation i' would be like what the [ __ ] have you ever hooked up with a guy that when you went to his house and his bathroom yeah or there's it's like fully stocked ready to go for like a woman post no but that's a little [ __ ] weird right it's weird I've been there before I've been there before and I'm like what are you a sexter on the go no a sexter on the go like you like a [ __ ] a [ __ ] on the go the [ __ ] on the go like he's ready he's equipped I mean he's got the baby wipes oh my God he's got like the makeup wipes okay you know what stop this for now this is what I will say if a guy has his entire bathroom stocked for a girl if it's a one night stand I'm like thank you thank you that I can take my makeup off I can like put my tampon imagine these tampons um but well that be confus you're seeing him in a way that you like him I would be like no [ __ ] this [ __ ] oh my God you want to hear a story yeah so I've seen this guy this is before the show and I went to his house and he had a his and her sink and his he had moved out and he moved to this new place I'll never [ __ ] forget this so he had his and her sink and then I walked into the bathroom and there's his sink it's all his [ __ ] and then there's this a random toothbrush in the her sink so I go what the [ __ ] is that he's like oh it's mine I I used I swear to God this is was this was his excuse I almost wanted to puke he's like oh no it's mine I I used two separate toothbrush is one that's a little bit hard bristles bristles what the [ __ ] and one that's softer I go like I don't know do I look like I'm stupid okay don't answer that but I don't [ __ ] with me right now he went to the extent of grabbing the toothbrush and using it to prove to me that he does use it and I went you just did the most and you're embarrassing so goodbye it's actually like regardless of if he's lying or if he's telling the truth both are awful right both are awful why was it on that side why was it on your [ __ ] put the ass stupid messy side put both of your toothbrushes in the same car in the same area liar okay he vents to you about his ex on one of the first few dates you know what um I like this I like to do this thing where I I call it um honesty hour it's actually a hidden thing that I like I I get every guy with it to be honest girls take notes um so I like to hang out with guys casually very casually let them know we're like we're friends we're going to like see where this goes kind of thing let's have a bottle of wine and and let's ask each other anything and like let's not judge each other on this so I usually ask I'll say what are are if your ex can describe you in any way how would it be cuz I like to know I want to see how they're going to a talk about their ex if it's going to be in a nice way but also I want to know what they would think that their ex would say about them so just like kind of opening that up and like letting them know it's a comfortable setting to like talk about that um but if they're opening up about their ex randomly without me asking I'd be like girl girl I no but I'd be like listen I think you need to send her a text and say your sorry because you're still hung up on it I'm not interested for me to go but um I don't know I would I wouldn't want to know okay wait honesty hour I'm kind of loving it this is my problem first of all I feel like every single time that a guy okay this is my expence still not being they're still not being honest no this is my problem every [ __ ] time I think that girls always want to [ __ ] know about a guy's past I'm like when I met mad I was like tell me every single EX you have show me Instagram who are they then some of them I was like oh my God like who you dated her oh my God and then he never asks in return oh my God cuz they don't want to know but I like that though it BS them so much they don't want to know a guy who's like show me show me I know there there's you're right let me make you jealous like ask they want to know and then they don't ask I I can see why they wouldn't want to know because I in my mind this the way my thought process would be is that they like me so much that they they can imagine me with anyone else I I believe that and IU no not at all it's not right but then there's also the the other guy who would be like no show me every single one and he's like weirdly like obsessive and like um wants to like take ownership of you and wants to know like I I like the guy who would be like you know what I don't even want to see it no I love the guy that does that I remember Matt did that to me on the date I was like so do you are you going to I can show you this guy sends me it breaks me confidence but such confidence but sometimes I'm like [ __ ] let me make you jealous okay second question is when you ask them oh what would your exes say about you what do you think Maria if I ask you what would all of your exes say about you o [ __ ] I don't like this turning on me um I think they would say that I'm honest um that I'm loyal and I can be um a little nuts at times I love the honesty what what shocker right that's me I don't think so self-aware self-aware so you're not doing the bachelorette where are we going to see you like we've got to see you more often I would love to be seen more often no actually you know what I'm not kidding you when I say this like I'm I'm taking it step by step like this like you I want to be on this podcast this was my first step and now what I'm going to do moving forward I don't know yeah I really don't know and so to give an answer but I'm sure people will see more of me yeah I think that's a great answer like I can imagine like this is very overwhelming right overh like you had a pretty normal life before all this does your dad really make uh sprinkles yeah that's kind of cool I know and every time I say sprinkles they're like sprinklers I'm like no no no guys the shapes and sugars you see on baked goods but people don't get it but someone has to do it do you like sprinkles I you know my dad owned a chocolate factory before the sprinkles and I wasn't a big chocolate eater I know I'm not like a dessert girl I'm not like he did like chocolate covered almonds everything and so um but as for sprinkles yeah I mean do I usually put sprinkles on things yes I'm going to say yes because I own a Sprinkle company but um listen we everyone you need it we need it to we need it we need it and someone's got to do it so so you're going to Stage Coach what are you going to do who are you going to Stage Coach with the sisters from my show iconic girls love they are the best oh you told me you were going with your sisters and I was like who you have sisters well they are like my sisters now who are you going with what are the names uh Lauren and Allison Hollinger okay and S do you love country music I I I um I'm I I like country music but am I the biggest fan no you're kind of like a Nickelback girl I love Nickelback [ __ ] I knew it [ __ ] I cannot wait to see nickel back photographs no I literally love nickel back and I don't get why they have such a bad rep because I don't know it makes so it's like me why do I have such a bad rep I don't get it either I I nick back I'm with you but um not after this episode I feel like we really kind of covered it all well we didn't cover anything I feel like you we need to like we need to do 19 more of these to actually get through it all but I truly had so much fun with you today I think you're even better in person you're so fun to be around you have insane stories I do and yeah there's so many more that actually yeah I'm not going to say it what no no no no we'll save it we'll save it time we'll save it for something else that maybe you'll do one day oh maybe I have an idea oh well I'm interested in hearing 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